CHANWANER.

2010-10-17T10:56:00.000+08:00

firstly, for teachers like Miss Kat (thanks for the badge and card!), Mr Patrick Lim, Mr Chan Chee Ming who all managed to break the boring image of "Teachers" sucessfully, like Miss Jasmine Lee who showed me that not all JC teachers are uncaring... but sometimes she cared too much and we ended up having lotsa lotsa lotsa extra Chemistry lessons~ LOL. but honestly amongst all the teachers, Miss Lee is probably the one who sacrificed the most for our class, especially during PW period.. and not to forget she's the only teacher who had been with us for 2 whole years. i really appreciate all that she had done for the class. of course, Miss Kat too.. she's really unpredictable. haha.

second, for a CCA like Interact Club which sadly was not looked upon highly. i don't talk about my CCA often, because serving is clearly not my passion.. but being in Interact Club has indeed made me learn about life a whole lot more. i learnt that not everyone is able enough to fend for themselves, and because even their closed ones are unable or unwilling to do so, all the more the community should step in and care for them because they really need it. throughout the one year and a few months of being an Interactor, i saw the forlorn in some of the eyes of the disabled elderly at Singapore Cheshire Home, i saw how delighted the elderly were at Lions Befrienders when they saw us, i witnessed how hard the kids at Yang Zheng Primary School were studying just cos we were tutoring them.... these are the kinds of experience that i may never get to experience again, just that i didn't come to appreciate them at those point in time. grateful for a president like Dominic Ng (who most probably finds me and twinsie troublesome memmbers) for being so nice to us, for fellow interactors like Ren Hui, Adeline, Josephine, Si Ling, Xian Yao, Nicholas, Yong Li...all the self-proclaimed slackers.

lastly, for a class like 2408 which really opened me to such multifarious personalities i've never came across in my secondary school.

the girls. i'm really glad that i got to know Jasmine (my fellow chan) and Melissa better this year because they're all really nice ppl with freaking wildness beneath their graceful appearances. Jiaxin has really been a wonderful friend and class leader, an interesting woman because despite being very bhb, she's one of the nicest person i've came across. and Andrea! i love her voice, and for being so cheery and her random comments in class and in LTs. Jeryl! who is really special cos she has such a small frame but a loud personality.. i salute her for her passion in dance and her maturity in handling certain things. Monica! a future leader in making, i admire her for being able to handle the class and do things the rational way.. i can still remember "vote for me x2, vote for Monica Lee.." HAHA. as for Sheryl and Serene, i've known them too long to say anything here.. but being able to study with them in the same class in JC was what i could not have been grateful enough for. 2408 is probably gonna be the last of being classmates with them after full 6 years.

the guys. it's quite amazing to be in the same class as Jun Hao again after graduating from primary school, and i got to know a whole new him thereafter. not the joker him anymore with his "xu chun mei" jokes, but rather the Professor Chiong who really is discontent with almost everything about AJC but is really sweet to his girlfriend. as for Jun Yoong, i believe only he can hold this gentlemanly outward appearance (i never hear him curse before!) but at the same time, is very very horny. his random comments in class were absolutely LOL.

2010-01-24T13:52:00.001+08:00

=) "All my feelings won't be expressed with just flowers, but I am sending this, hoping that you will recognize my feelings a little.."

The Strangers Were Lovers

2010-01-18T23:04:00.010+08:00

what a cruel world we live in. what a harsh reality to accept. is there no one worth entrusting your whole heart to? no one deserving of it? thought it was over but not. realized how awful it was to experience the deep screaming pain inside even after so long.. but you deserve better. much better. just let this end. here. now.

you close your eyes when you cry. that's ok. just don't keep them closed too long. things have become beautiful since you last looked. there's nothing more to cry about. those were beautiful tears. but that's enough. don't cry anymore. (pleasefindhere)

sad or angry? how am i supposed to feel. you're like a riddle which i forever cannot figure. this. that. this. that. on. off. on. off. what do you want me to do?

TVXQ! is what i need now.

2010-01-17T22:13:00.003+08:00

firstly, this week was my pay day week! &the first thing i got myself is....

MILK MILK! (guess why? lol)

thanks to zp i managed to get this cute thing. its a big big dolphin plushie and i named it Milkmilk. love him so much (yeah its a guy, see the baby blue) he's so fat and so nice to hug! heeee.

second. i get myself caught in a dilemma because of...

THIS! one of Bigeast special official goods for 2010.

i wouldn't have been so troubled if i have a Japanese boyfriend seriously ==" it costs ¥2,800 alone directly from Japan! handlers in SG jack up the price to much more than just that since only Bigeast mbrs can get it and to be a Bigeast i need to have a japanese address. grrrr!

&just as i was more prone towards not getting this (ouch i really like the purple + maomao keychain~), today just so happened to be the day i'm getting my edusave merit bursary award! and and and~ this time round thr's $50 more. shucks it gives me another reason to get this precious. tan tan, how?!

***

can't get enough of CN BLUE! they're so gorgeous i already liked them when i saw their first performance omg. i like how their music is different from the generic kpop, not the usual catchy beats and dance and sometimes irritating autotune. they're a live band like FT Island, but different in their style. i just like them! yonghwa shocked me with his singing and rap, definitely not the Kang Shinwoo in You're Beautiful anymore~ i like him better like this. full of performance charisma, and his stage prescence is awesome... i like his groove to the music when he sings :D i like that drummer too! (idk why heee)

worthy to check them out! addicted to this song already :D

lastly!

BREAK OUT! pv is out on tuesday finally... love their styles for this single. JJ looks good in permed hair! i reckon if he does a Lee-Minho disaster hair he'll pull it off like beautifully LOL. and Junsu is so hot HAHA. k everybody is! sort of digging the gothic style... but no group scenes damnit T.T

BREAK OUT BREAK OUT! 500000 copies gogogo! can't wait for the single's release at the end of this month!

oh. and i nearly fainted when i saw the kiss scenes for the Mozart! musical... oh my god sun!

<3

random post

2010-01-10T21:03:00.003+08:00

#1. for the whole of this week, i took trains w ULTRA SMELLY MAX PEOPLE. there's this one guy especially, he's so smelly that almost a metre away also can smell him. and went twice on the same carriage with him some more. people can smell of everything. of sweat of cigarette and OHYA carbon monoxide. some people can freaking FART in the train wth. super squeezy some more couldn't escape from that kinda hell. i wanna drive a car :(

#2. can commuters on MRTs freaking stop squeezing me like i'm as thin as a paper can! super irritating it's not as if they're ohsoslim or what lo. squeeze squeeze squeeze. have to rub against their fats some more. grrrrr disgusting eek!

#3. the government is so evil. want to discourage us from driving and encourage us to take public transport still make it so expensive for us. today went to syc only two-way altogether spent $6plus. helloooooo can eat two full meals leh. return our concession la we're still students so poor sobsob.

#4. i'm so sad thr's no Daesung no Hyori no Jaesuk for Family Outing 2! in fact, all the old casts won't be in season 2. sigh sigh. looking forward to Taecyeon though, but not really digging Yoona's involvement :/

#5. i'm watching Hi My Sweetheart now. Show Luo is absolutely hilarious love him so much! heee. but just as the climax of the show is reached... i have to wait for another 1 or 2 days for the next episode to be uploaded on the net after being aired on taiwan TV later on today. lousy Starhub why dont have GTV and CTS channels. grrrr. the show's a nice watch btw! :D

#6. i'm so sad Break Out! first press edition is SOLD OUT even before i can make it on time to pre-order it! i planned to order it once i got my pay but now its sold out boooo. it's not even released yet leh. hope they can print more copies. i want the Bigeast 1st press edition!

#7. i ♡ DBSK. HAHA. aktf aktf aktf !

#8. kenneth's going bang bang bang tmr! aww man. first one to go...

then slowly, the guys will all disappear gradually :(

take care in army nerd!

#9. good luck to CHAN WAN XIAN for o levels results tmr!

excited excited nervous nervous.

i hope she'll do well, she really gave it her all on her last lap (:

#10. it doesn't hurt anymore (:

#11. my temper has became better since school life ended (temporarily) for me.

but i'll still like to cut down my temper on my family. love them! ^^

spazz spazz spazz

2010-01-07T08:56:00.007+08:00

just this morning i reached the office, switched on the com and as usual stalk updates of my favourite people...(do you know who? do you know do you know? hmmpfxx if euuu donch noe euu nortx miee fwenz buaiz buaiz)

HA. anws! i discovered that i dressed like jun-chan today! omo omo omo :D

(credits: as shown)
si tu pig gavan still say i look like a taxi driver =.= please lo it's huehseon (aunty style "fashion") LOL

lalalala~ australia is like burning and Junsu still wears until like that O.O
awesome trio is in aussie i wanna go too!

bbbb i'm not slacking. back to work now :D

-edited-

v below: evidence to show that i'm doing work... MS excel O.O

.........
so efficient that we got time to watch tudou~ lalala.

and here's the couple wear:
LOL actually not really similar. but i insist :P
and lastly, my index finger got cut by the metal part of the umbrella!hontou ni itai ! :(

i feel like eating ajisen ramen men men men men *echo*

2010-01-03T23:31:00.008+08:00

have i said this before? whether or not, i believe what i'm going to say is what many of you will feel... cos such irritating people do exist.

yeah what i'm going to shout out is this:
SMS-es or instant messages, i freaking DISLIKE people who give replies like i owe them a gazillion dollars. what's infuriating is the fact that it's not even me who started the conversation... i can be busy watching online videos/painting nails etc. but I BOTHERED TO GIVE THEM PROPER REPLIES. yet what i got are those kind of replies that seriously freaking turned me off. can they at the very least show some respect please? if they like to show how much they don't care, why even bother starting the conversation in the first place? it's not as if i will die if these people don't talk to me. i'd rather talk to a tortoise than someone who doesn't show me respect. zzz.

.... what a bad note did i start my official post of 2010 on!

on the contrary, however, the first 3 days of 2010 were great, as if i was enlightened or something cos i feel so refreshed ^^
been shopping and eating w the people i love!
and yesterday was a whole afternoon and night at tampanies for study mtg, leaving me so motivated after that heee.

i'm not evil... i'm really not evil. BUT.
i'd really like to kick aside those idiots, then i'll be even happier (:

FREAKING BROKE! but :DDDDD

もう2010年ですね!

2010-01-01T21:50:00.012+08:00

it was a good end to 2009 and a good start to 2010 (:

after mtg mummy for lunch ytd aft work, went to meet abel and dk and we went off to city hall first. spent much time walking ard looking for a decent place for buffet cos some ppl didn't want to sit flyer.. and went to shop too. it was entertaining to listen to both of them converse LOL. oh nearly got to eat Yuki Yaki! (yum yum) but in the end we still decided to go sit the flyer ^^ others came. dinner was at Popeye's. was so stressed up cos i was th only girl again and i rly tried to eat normally! @.@

flyer! haven't been up there bfore~ but since those who went said the ride's boring, i didn't anticipate much from it either.

but it was pretty cool actually! i mean from walking from the entrance to the flyer and taking the ride itself.. everything was so tourist-ish. didn't find the ride boring, probably cos our capsule didn't have a lot of ppl so it was quite spacious, the guys were entertaining (LOL) and i was busy snapping away! a few couples from Japan took the flyer w us and woah the way they spam those jap words while conversing was like a machine gun going "piang piang piang!" LOL. could only uds random remarks like sou da ne~ =.= FAIL. and kenneth kept on "doushite doushite", was quite funny HAHA.

on th way up!
guys! someone so bright lol.
ghost spotted.
timer shot!
i'm bringin sexy back, YEAH~ *teeko emoticon*
imagine this is t be taken next year. only one person will appear in the photo! :/

the night scenery was pretty.. sugoi desu!

walking on f1 track!
photos above taken when walking ard the sg flyer area before going to marina square whr yongjie was! i think he waited for quite long for us hee. we wanted to find cindy they all cos we were still thinking of what to do, but they decided to play hide seek w us siaaaaal. nerd's sensor failed so we just walked ard marina sq till we just gave up and stoned at some place bfore finally spotting them! but anws aft that we still went separate LOL.

andy joined us. walked to suntec. zhentao and weifeng joined us.. then twins and yuewen came! wanted to find some place to sit and chill, so decided to go to Longbar.. but entrance was ex max. and the bar didn't look happening either. in the end went to raffles shopping and settled at pizza place. wah walked here and there legs sibei suan alr lo.. then some of us got v sian. lol. oh cheryl came to join us too (:

chio xmas tree
outside th bar!
my cats (:
something happened....LOL

ry and nerd left to join their other friends then we left to find some place to countdown. countdown was at some war memorial thingy. ooo we counted down to 2010 w THEM! hahahahaa.

nth new about the fireworks. was almost the same as last year's but longer? hmmm ok i think it was the same, just that this year i decided not to take any photos or vid of those fireworks since i already have a lot of them, so the fireworks seemed longer.

amidst the "HAPPY NEW YEAR! HAPPY 2010!" that everyone was greeting each other, i heard a "ohnooooooo its the end of our concession!!" from zt/dk/wf? LOL damn funny. but yeah true! $1++ per bus ride to bkt panjang is :O (i took that bus ride just now =.=)

was deciding whether to go club w them or go home aft that. aft considering certain things, decided to head back to woodlands~! THE CROWD WAS HORRIBLE. we lost track of zt that group ==;;; grrrr how nice if we all rode a bike there (LOL yj's joke)

trained back to wlds! saw cindy and liping when we reached dere lol. wanted to go yixin's house ton, but in the end we all decided to go back home. although tired ttmax, mh was v v nice to even agree to send yuewen all the way back home tgt w sheryl! *thumbs up* guess their legs must have broken by the time they reached their homes haha

reached home and... i didn't sleep. LOL. found out that the white team won at Kouhaku! yay yay yay :D wanted to ton w my sis but she KO-ed first. wth! haha. ok i KO-ed at about 5am.. limit reached. and sweet dreams thereafter~ (:

***

new year resolutions? i find it pointless to make them since those i made last year barely got realized. zzz. i just know that i want to treat my family members btr, keep in touch w all my close friends, know more new friends, remain active physically... and freaking get into a university pls!

2009 wasn't a very good year so i shan't talk about it anymore. i'm glad it ended in a good way however, all thanks to the company i had! (: shall leave everything behind now, and a whole brand new year is ahead of me.. i feel so refreshed now! yipeee.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE.

it's 2010 already! :D

NEW YEAR!

2009-12-31T10:57:00.006+08:00

wheee working half day tdy. at office now (:

am looking forward to 2010! 2009 sucks real bad. too many bad things happened. too unhappy w many many things. not that i'm very hard to please, but even today which is the last day of 2009, some idiot still must come and piss me off. zzzz wth like i'm some rotten apple like that. like this whole year i'm cursed or what. i can't deny that good things did happened, but they're all overshadowed bad. as if the a levels isn't enough to make this whole year bad, life isn't THAT good after A's either... bah. 2009 SUCKED. 12 more hours to its end CAN'T WAIT!

countdown ltr?
i feel like staying home to watch Tohoshinki at Kouhaku Uta Gassen at NHK ltr! ah ah ah ah ah ah ah it's like once in a blue moon i can catch them live on tv leh! they freaking won't appear on korean television one lor. and i wish they can sing other songs instead of Stand By U already la they sang this like 999999999 times~ and Bolero is definitely more flattering for their awesome vocals and harmonization (:

so so so so so... GO, OR NOT?!
roar roar roar (*hint hint CINDY*- LIONESS LOL)

counting down w friends or not, i'm just happy that this year's gonna end...

2010 faster come! getting my first pay then too :D

bye! thanks to zp i'm gonna keep this post short. LOL

2009-12-27T18:00:00.005+08:00

today, i went to tampanies safra to swim in the morn and got chaota max. thereafter, spent 45minutes walking ard tamp before finally surrendering to our inherent lack of sense of direction and took a bus at a nearby bus stop to the interchange. sweat a lot, got chaota even more, but am happy cos saw a different side of singapore and reflected about life then. suddenly pitied those construction workers when i saw under how harsh an environment they're all working in, yet they get paid so little and got spray cans aimed at them at orchard rd on xmas eve.

returned home to a bowl of peanut porridge for lunch. daddy is finally off from work tdy (:

watched episodes after episodes of IRIS. i'm left with the last now... don't feel like watching it cos i don't want it to end! yet i've got the urge to do so. i'm not very sure about season 2 is cos no Lee Byung Hun. and i can't stand how ppl ONLY watch IRIS for Top. while i do admit that Top is hot (kinda rhymes haha), he's like not even the main character in the show.. producers just merely put him as one of the main casts so that he can get onto the IRIS promotion poster and they get more viewers. i'm not criticising their marketing tactics- there's nothing wrong w it, i'm just irked with those fans who go like "oh why did Top die? now there's nothing more to this drama..." it's so underrating the drama itself! and it's so unfair to the other casts who acted so exceedingly well, all including the supporting casts. k i think i'm so gonna get blast =.= but i just couldn't stand it la.

lee byung hun is gonna be my new favourite korean actor! (nvm the scandals) together with jang geun suk hahaha. like how i felt he was in the movie The Good, The Bad, The Weird, he's not attractive at first glance. but he wins hands down in charisma, even w the most hagged looks. and for a 39 year old to have that THAT kind of well sculpted body is :O i almost felt Kim Tae Hee was enjoying it max when Lee was cuddling her ohohoh me toooo i want! HAHA i love his smile la.

the more i watch IRIS the more i feel that Kang Sa Woo looks like Suju's Hankyung! lol

ppl should catch this drama! it's not the typical kind of idol dramas that normally guys would think only girls will want to watch. lol. the casts' acting, the action, the plot (which made me scratched head a thousand times cos it's so complicated) and even the soundtrack all make this drama worth watching =)

k so i'm rambling on and on about a show again...HA.

off for dinner now! last episode here i come~

-edit- ENDING SUCKS! zomg i rather he end up with the N.korean woman who's equally hot and loves him unconditionally than him to just get shot by a sniper like that. JUST LIKE THAT? hellloooo?! drama's excellent but HATED THE ENDING... spoils it all. what a bummer, can't accept it. lets see what they do with season 2 then. season 2 fast come please! and let kim hyun joon live -.-

can't believe i just finished episode 20..

my heart is still pumping from all the action from the drama and i'm still hearing gunfire shots.

oh well. so what's the next big drama?

メリークリスマス

2009-12-25T15:03:00.013+08:00

slept for nearly 12hours again and woke up at 2.30pm :DD

i'm supposed to go for a xmas party! but since it starts at 12 noon and if i were to go i'll prolly reach there at 4plus i might as well not go right. LOL anyways the xmas party's more for kids. you know, the games and all... and i don't drink alcohol so i can't join in the adults' talk haha. i miss being a kid, christmas used to be so fun back then. guess i got to spend my xmas day at hommie! unless randomness calls me later and i decide to go out later :D

***

eve of eve! had half day at work... the other half was a party at the dance club Scarlet City amk hub. but even so, we barely did any work in the morning. haha. went to amk in waileong's car and squeezed at the back seats with yusri,ed,cindy. wah damn suffocating cannot take it.

reached the club and us the temporary staff helped monica out at the gift exchange corner. the party started with foooood! man the food was good, there were prawns scallops crab turkey blah blah...should have eaten more considering that after the whole thing there were lotsa leftovers so wasted!

anws eating with the guy colleagues was entertaining as usual. esp daniel... hahahaha. he thought that the fried crab was curry puff and went to bite on it! LOL. and it seems very much like guys above 25 years old tend to argue a lot about the age issue. daniel yusri linus ray and waileong (who always pretend not to hear anyth) alike... a conversation about age always come out from them and daniel will keep on saying he's as young as us HAHA. one amazing discovery by cindy and i.

oh the below conversation was the best:
D: eh i realised her dimples are quite deep hor... (points to cindy)
L: huh what thing dimples?
D: i saying her dimples lo...very deep.
Y (who was eating): eh i also got dimple leh! there my butt lo! deep deep one!
everyone: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

yusri's wife is so fortunate cos yusri is so cute unlike some irritating malays, like the one who scolded me in the train and made me go "WTF" as i walked out on her cos i couldn't stand it she's so fat but blamed me for squeezing in her way zzzz. (okay random. but this deserves to be mentioned cos ppl who know me will know that i don't use that f word at all)

games were acceptable not very lame and some quite fun too. saw some very cool colleagues who really went all out to play omg couldn't imagine it before. and the MCs were so good! so funny esp steve. used to think he was quite stern but now... impression changed. HAHA.

our little gift exchange corner.
all the wine bottles!
wl's temp staff.20,18,18,23- our respective ages20 and 23- still play with lift buttons. LOL
yusri and waileong! two funny guys who take very good care of us heh
i see gavan's face -.- lol
wl was trying to act youthful la! hahaha
oh the twist sign never gets old yea? hahaha.

with the girl i see almost everyday just like in sec school LOL
monica and ray. both are married! (but not to each other) i still can't believe monica's 29 and a mother of one.and ray's like reaching 40 when he's like so fit hahaha
all the temp staff!

if you haven't already noticed, the guys were all in green and girls in red. haha. great afternoon at a great place with great food and some great ppl.

ohohoh the director talked to cindy! LOL

***

xmas eve! half day at work too... but office was totally not in the mood for any work. the sub department i'm in had a mini celebration for xmas...and a lot of staff bought their kids along. Ray was like entertaining all the kids la, playing hula hoops and balls and catching with them. totally daddy material. lol. steve's child was sosososo cute!! he's like a little Junsu. LOL too bad i got no photos of him :(

a small glimpse of how we were like in the office below.

gavan was reading Men's Health before he...
went to ~~flirt~~ play with the girls.
ac's nieces! they were hogging up the place where cindy and i were sitting so we had to stand lol.
i don't know what's this but hahaha
focus: wallpaper!
focus: wallpaper!! LOL.
focus: ed's com screen. trying to act hardworking but...
we caught the other side of him. (LOL)model carrying: waileong's xmas present
cindy and i both thought only he has this, but when we went back to look at ours...it was on our wrappers LOL

jtc's elc bus. support dept. (:
knocked off at 1pm and headed home. cindy went to my house and we watched a few hours of video before heading to cwp to meet minghao and kenneth! met up with ruiyong after that and took train to bishan, dined at Subway (and i forgotten about my cookie =.=) and went to the cinema where abel and dingkai joined us.

watched Alvin and the Chipmunks 2. it felt it was okay what, some parts were quite cute... but why did Cindy find it boring! lol. just that it isn't very of a blockbuster type so not very impressionable. aww i want to watch Avatar!! and and and Sherlock Holmes :(

after movie trained down to Orchard. the crowd was zomg horrible. like we need to queue up to get out of the mrt station?? and one could easily get lost too... hmmm yuewen was at Orchard too so she came to meet us! went to Ion and then went to Paragon to look for zhentao and weifeng who were having some party at their outlet. Prada has all sorts of people working there manzxzxzxzxzx. freaked out o.o hahahaha.

twins&mom came and left. met bryan xwxw and gang but since they were going to a pub we didn't join them. it was funny cos we didn't have something in mind that we could do either... so we just did our favourite activity: Stand and Stone (S&S)

UNFORTUNATELY, S&S is a crime! O.O guess what happened was the highlight of the night: we freaking got questioned by 3polices who came towards us and asked for our identification cards. so embarassing cos while they were taking down our particulars, we all sat at a side and other ppl just walked past us =.= to think that before that we didn't want to squeeze in the crowd so we chose to walk the other path with very few ppl. AND! one policeman was so rude! we were curious as to why they wanted to take down our particulars cos it wasn't even 11pm. he gave us that gl face and said "do i need to have a reason for so?" SLAP HIM AH !@#$%^&*((*&%$#@ policemen are SO NOT COOL.

after they let us go we just cursed them like crazy. went to squeeze into the crowd again and walked aimlessly around.

after that we finally decided to head to The Cathay and went to Ben&Jerry's for some ice-cream! met twinsie agn. i didn't eat any icecream cos i wasn't craving for some very sweet stuff. then we just stoned there and stoned... zt wanted to join us but in the end since we all decided to head back home he went home first. and then he told us the last train was at 12am so we went off to the mrt station. but.... last train was at 1.30am actually. HAHA. counted down to xmas in the train! (?!?!) which was quite... dots. and i was so tired by then already don't know why.

i was in charged of taking unglam photos (self-proclaimed) yesterday cos it was so boring to just walk around without anything in mind to do HAHA.

look at the crowd! o.o
in photo: cindy who likes "fishball eyes" hehehehe
gingerbread man looks like he's trying to kill dk! LOL
tagged: abel's white teeth and dk's dimple.
tagged: mh's stardom backview(he looks as though he's trying to hide from some paparazzi LOL)
dk requested for his backview to be taken heee
cats are always good friends forever~ :)

at one point dk called desperately for us to stop cos he wanted to tie his shoelaces. LOL OK THIS IS A BIT UNNECESSARY

guess next time we go out we really need to have an itinerary if not we would be caught by some dumb policeman again. then again although yesterday night was quite... meaningless, at least i got to see them all again (:

oh and i must thank kenneth and cindy for walking me back home cos i heard from sis who got home later than me that those guys under my block (whom i presume were the ones i saw when walking under my block) were creating trouble :O scary scary...

a big big sorry to jx for not joining you and gang cos if i do i would have nobody to go home with!

waileong bought gifts for all 4 of us, and since he forgotten to tear of one of the price tags on mine, i discovered the price for all of our presents. not cheap! thanks to mr.supervisor he's such a nice nice guy. also, thanks to all other colleagues for their small gifts. and minghao too! (:

i feel like listening to some sad sad winter songs today.

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS~

breeze & lights

2009-12-22T23:06:00.007+08:00

yesterday night was spent at vivocity with yuewen and cindy! finally met up with yw after so many many many months (: had work so we could only meet in the evening. dinner was at HK Kim Gary Restaurant. we loved it for the HK and Kim (hee) but food was very very nice too! the cheese for its pasta was *yumyum* yuewen and i were awed by cindy who ate the octopuses and oysters delightfully HAHA.

we were very very full after dinner. i seriously felt like some humpty dumpty so full that i felt i couldn't even support my bloated stomach while walking o.o okay that was exaggerating. anyways the night scene at harbourfront was so beautiful. the lightings, the sea and all... we went up on some ship cos free entrance and cindy got sea sick LOL. then we went to find some place and sit while i sneakily took out the cake we bought for yw (to celeb her birthday- belated) and lighted the candle using the matchsticks i stole from the office (shhhh....) so scary cos the wind kept on blowing! i made weird noises and after that yw saw the cake. sang birthday song, took photos, and we quickly left cos a bangla kept on staring =.=

there was this GIGANTIC xmas tree! so nice so gorgeous omg. totally spazzed over the xmas tree haha.

reached home at 11plus. shagged out but happy (: some pictures from yesterday~

a night well spent with ppl i love very very much! haven't felt like this in a very very long time, thanks for that (:

ohhhhhhh i'm so pissed off with facebook cos i tried uploading photos on it THRICE but it failed on all tries. kidding me lo my mood already not very good just now cos of some idiot and now facebook just gave me all the crap. RAAAH. okay okay i stop, supposed to be a happy post right.

anyways, a new temporary staff joined us today. new friend Gavan who's 20 this year say helloooo~ lol. at first thought he was some serious guy but he turned out to be rather cheeky lor, alike bryan haha. hmm hmmm yesterday got to know 2 girls from vjc as well but they're in different departments from us. Edwin was so lame today =.= omg can't believe both the guys are like 20 and 23 already they're all so childish! and i don't know how come today office's very lively, but i like :D heee.

so far the male colleagues are all very interesting hahaha. there's WL who's always eating and is very comical, Yusri who's always singing his Cascada song, Ray who always say we temp staff are having very good lives and kept on talking abt his $3.50 pay, Daniel who is funny with every comment he makes and especially when bickering with Yusri and WL. and some other guy we don't know who talks about stuff like SKII and luohan fish lolol.

entertaining for us indeed. good for us cos our jobs alone are boring hee.

tmr! christmas event for staff at some club at AMK. we were not supposed to go unless we want to perform cos we're only temp staff.. but Ray managed to get us to help out at the gift exchange so we could go. hahaha although i feel like using the half day leave to go home and sleep instead, i its gonna be quite fun la, so looking forward to it (:

ah ah ah. can't wait for christmas!

what?

if it always conclude this way, i'd rather you not talk to me.

my wish for xmas

2009-12-19T19:33:00.008+08:00

slept for more than 12hours undisturbed :) woke up at 1.40pm but hahaha super shiok!

ytd after work went for study mtg at SYC. met up with engpeng&friends at harbourfront for dinner first. while walking to harbourfront centre i got stopped by some insurance agent -.- at first he told me to just answer a few questions for a survey so i said okay. then somehow i ended up following him to the booth and listened to him blab about Medishield (hello how old do you think i am?!) and even filled up some application form. grrr... why am i so nice to reject people. yeah and i thought everything was over but then an hour later he sms-ed me asking where i went for dinner. eh wth! you're not supposed to probe into your customer's business zzz.

mtg was okay. but i really hate the journey back home cos it was so scary sitting at the back of a near-empty bus at 10plus pm and i hate sitting beside people on train who smell like FISH. seriously sia if they smell so bad can they freaking not take public transport! negative externality k... and what's worse is this can't be correct. ok maybe if i'm the government i'll install a "smell-testing system".. commuters getting pass the ticketing machine would have to go through this smell-test system. if the smell is beyond acceptable, the system automatically sprays perfume on that smelly bimbo! 50cents deducted from ezlink card only. how awesome ^^

HAHA retarded.

yay i'm going to study! for SD exam... kinda excited cos my application form for the entrance exam the other time was messed up so i didn't take the exam. and i'm gonna continue to study Japanese writing man learned last time but all forgotten already. haven't even master hiragana yet such a failure =.=

DBSK is gonna make me broke again with BREAK OUT single coming out next year and a compilation Best album! but i'm happy :D as for the 3rd Asia Tour Mirotic concert DVD, i'm still considering cos of the boycott of SM entertainment thingy. gah it sounds so tempting with all the unseen footages and stuff... but before it gets clear of where the money will go to when buying stuff from SM, i better think twice. i've already fell for SME's marketing tactics when they release AADBSK3. *slaps myself*

watching Bambino! now~ i like how Matsumoto Jun always go "shirimasen shirimasen !" and and and Mukai Osamu is in although not the main lead! hahaha.

can't wait for xmas eve. can't wait for christmas. can't wait for a new year to start.

2010 here i come... i want to start afresh. spend more time with family. spend more time with bff. free from troubles, free from burdens. other things will come naturally.

if you like to make people so unhappy, just... go away.

i'm tolerating no more. giving in no more. holding on no more.

do i have to hate you? maybe.. but maybe i've only got myself to blame.

my one and only wish for christmas is to be more happy than now. genuinely.

2009-12-16T22:54:00.012+08:00

finished watching Atashinchi no Danshi !

it's a good drama which touches more on family relations. a nice switch from the typical romance kdramas i've been watching...jdramas always provide more genres hee. should watch it when you're feeling down or sth cos every episode really cracked me up! some parts are quite ridiculous but i guess ridicule is what the drama sells. there're quite a few touching scenes which made me cry... but after a while a funny scene never fails to pop up randomly. LOL. cheered me up hee :D BUT ending sucks grrr. i was expecting to see a Chisato and Sho happy ending! wahlao RAAAR.

ohoh casts were great too! usually i don't spazz over Jdrama guys cos they're too pretty. but i really love these two!

Mukai Osamu!

acting as Sho. he's supposed to confess to Chisato lo i wanna see them get together! hahaha didn't like him in the beginning but he gets more and more charming idk why. love his smile.

Kaname Jun!

i like his features!! yeah like i said, he's very unlike usual jap male actors. he's so manly hahaha.

and my favourite:

Akira! he's so adorable LOL. can't believe he's the same age as my bro...why can't my bro be equally adorable so that i would buy him ice cream everyday. haha no la bro is cute too :)

yay more Jdramas? i feel like watching Liar Game and Bambino! Liar Game cos the plot sounds cool...but quite scary. Bambino cos the one and only Matsumoto Jun is in hahaha.

too bad office blocked youtube, so i can't watch it in office =.=

oh btw, work today was the best man. i just earned like $60 plus rotting away in the office.. cos all of us finished our tasks on hand and wl doesn't have any more work for us to do. so me and Cindy rot away and Edwin just kept on playing his game. i guess if work doesn't come in, tmr is likely to be a day of rotting as well. Cindy even got so bored that she went to view my blog archive and laughed like crazy. LOL so embarrassing edwin was like KORE NANI?! dots.. and so, i removed my archives to prevent more people from laughing at my twitxzxzxz back then. haha. well i guess you can roughly see how bored we were just by looking at my tag board... and i can almost finish up all the quizzes available on facebook man. checked out air ticket prices online ohman i really want to travel overseas!!

AH yesterday was XIAH DAY~ wheeee. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE!

i don't know why the hell people can say that he's overrated HELLO THEN TELL ME HOW DO YOU HOW DO YOU HOW DO YOU RATE PEOPLE. tsk. Junsu's singing ability is a gift, screw off haters! wahaha. zomg i sound so evil. oo whatever. DOLPHIN FIGHTING! SM ENTERTAINMENT please do not ruin such a talent. grrr

***

i'm okay now because i've decided to just not care, and the key is to get myself occupied with many many things. okay maybe i'm just appearing so. but Bryan is right. everybody changed- at least in my opinion it is so. yeah, including you.. whom i guess have no idea to this at all which totally makes me infuriated. its not surprising to me actually, and the fact that i'm not surprised isn't surprising either. have i changed? i don't know. but if changing can make me more happy, why not? i want to make myself more .... so that i won't ..... anymore. if not, can you change so that you can be who you used to be in my eyes? well i guess not. not for me. not anymore. after all, it's just an accident that i got myself into this, isn't it? so here i am again, asking something that no one has the answer for. but indeed i see it as this. a terrible accident.

i miss the girls.

janai !

忘れないで…

2009-12-12T14:01:00.009+08:00

home today (: finally caught up on my beauty sleep time after a week of insufficient sleep. work is boring boring boring. so mundane cos of the repetitive work. and very tiring for the body, the back the neck the eyes and fingers o.o colleagues are very nice ppl and i've got cindy with meee! that's the only thing i'm thankful for.

enjoyed watching Golden Disk Awards 09. there was this perf put up by Suju, SHINee, SNSD for tribute to MJ... awww how i wish DBSK was in there it would have been an epic performance. last year they was the biggest winner of GDA =/ anyways so long since we last saw Super Junior performed, check out their remix for Sorry Sorry! i'm not a very huge SuJu fan as in i don't stalk for their updates and all. but i absolutely love them and this song. Siwon finally cut his hair, and he wasn't wearing anyth inside his blazer! o.o hot hot. LOL now Heechul needs a haircut it's so long. Kyuhyun was awesome, his voice is *melts* HAHA. love Leeteuk as usual :D

BIGEAST 4th Fanclub Event was cancelled... i guess it's really difficult for all five of them to be standing on the same stage without treating like nothing has happened anymore. i miss the old Dong Bang Shin Ki, miss their vibe :(

so Ming Hao just flew for China to join his fellow chew Kenneth in breathing the same chinananana airrrr~ haha. bon voyage! hope they're having fun! beats people like you and me staying in boring Singapore. eeee i don't think i'll be getting to go for a year end holiday cos of work. not cos of my work cos being a temporary staff, i've got unlimited leave LOL. but my sis's work doesn't allow her to take much leave.

***

somehow i feel that things are different now. people change, feelings change. i don't like this kind of feeling at all cos i don't know anything yet i sense something, but what can i do other than to speculate. maybe there wasn't anything to hold on to in the first place, or maybe there was before but now there's nothing to hold on to anymore because the grip just disappeared as time goes by. i have been thinking a lot a lot a lot... so much that i'm very tired mentally already i don't want to think anymore. i felt so uncomfortable with what i saw, so i couldn't help but... i just could not bring myself to... but why did i even bother so much in the first place when i guess nobody else cares about anything at all, and when this is such a one-sided thing. i'm so afraid. i really don't feel like thinking about it anymore, but can i?

and i happened to plug in to this song... why do i feel so sad now

Juicy couture?

2009-12-10T22:34:00.008+08:00

what a theme for prom night '09. nobody cared about the theme actually, so what was the purpose of having one? like what Sicheng boldly commented, it really felt like a one night stand. like just one night of fun and everything is over when you head home. anyways i wasn't so excited about prom as some people were because i got tired shopping around for things i needed. everything was so last minute for this year's prom. lol. prom was more of some mass photo-taking sessions with all glamorous people, food was okay but not the main point. the rest.. not really worth mentioning cos i just remembered the dance prom king and queen nominees did which was so hilarious HA.

initial plan for post prom was cancelled so joined aj gang and got VIP passes into butter factory. was my first clubbing experience! at first was quite intimidating cos music was so deafening and when i first walked in people started staring like don't know what like that. SO WEIRD. but after got used to the surroundings and the people, everyone kind of warmed up and it was kinda funny seeing people dance. clubbing brought my problems away a little. the experience was quite cool cos everyone was very high. luckily the guys tagged along so it was safer haha. overall the night was very very very high and well spent :D ms kat was very nice to wait for everyone to leave the place first before she left. cabbed home and was home at about 3am.

the company i had was what made the night a memorable one. thanks :) it would have sucked so much if i just went home right after prom

~~pictures next time i don't really have the mood for anything now~~

pictures on FB! yayness for photo uploading on facebk, don't have to upload one by one on blog anymore hee. click here.

***

to TAN YUE WEN:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~

sorry that we have to celebrate your birthday belated cos everyone's so busy. we still haven't meet up yet i miss you so much! i miss those old days when we don't even have to worry about anything... go to Korea soon! lets go see our KIMs. hehe. a friend like you will last forever. happy birthday girl, hope you liked the present. thanks for being such a great friend all along (:

to CHEW MING HAO:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! a quick glimpse at birthday boy in white looking good yesterday hee, sry for the gold hair T.T the lightings' fault!

glad you had fun yesterday~

december babies have it best cos they have the holidays to celebrate their birthdays.

last birthday of the year to go: LIM MEH MEH (looking suave with red hair yesterday!)

i'm going to sleep early today cos i only had 3 hours of sleep after reaching home from clubbing =.=

work is getting taxing on the body, i have to sit in front of the com for hours and hours and stare at it doing repetitive work of copying, pasting, typing, blah blah. 2000 more companies to go! by monday! my back is so pain now and my neck hurts. shucks i'm not gonna get an office job in the future, am i?!

whatever. i'm kinda distracted from work for the whole of today for some reason and i was very very sleepy... tomorrow its gonna be full concentration i cannot slack like edwinwin.

i'm shagged out. tired. don't care.

very busy lately + first day at work!

2009-12-07T21:07:00.012+08:00

i'm hardly at home these few days cos i've been heading out to do many many things. get prom stuff, prepare for wedding, get my hair dyed and all. on saturday, whole family visited sis who's working at Ngee Ann City (i went to Orchard for like x times since hols started O.O) and i suddenly felt like she was older than me noooooooo ~

HAHA i like like likey going out with my family cos everyone of them is so cute! sis is always unpleased with everything around her, brother is never concerned about his clothes and stuff when he ought to be, mommy bought me a new dress she chose which made me feel like some young kid again, daddy is nooob at taking MRT yay yay yay haha.

okk. wedding dinner yesterday at Peninsular Excelsior! my brother's cousin's son got married yesterday at the age of 27. may they have a blissful marriage ahead :)

waitresses and waitors were a HUGE bunch of china people, luckily i didn't go to work as a waitress this year. food was okay... hmm not very nice actually. sharks' fins were the best. saw many many relatives, some of whom have changed so much. many of my close relatives couldn't make it yesterday too, cousins started working around... suddenly felt like seeing them so much :(

and i hate answering the usual questions from inquisitive relatives like "oh which uni do you wanna go? which course?" obviously a person like me with no freaking foresight and no mind for the future would say "IDK", THEN THEY WILL NAG NAG NAG NAG NAG. worse. "wah i heard you got a boyfriend already leh... when will be your wedding dinner?" I SAY, "O.O YOU HEARD FROM WHO!" sigh i know its just a way to show their concern but still... alamak can let me eat or not keep on asking asking.

ohohoh I SAW MR.ANDREWCHIA (aj PE teacher) at the wedding dinner! i think he recognised me cos he kept on looking at me =.= mom kept on asking me to go greet him wth lol PE TEACHER BETTER NOT MESS WITH HIM.

me didn't bring digital camera yesterday (dumb or dumb T.T) so here are some okay photos taken using my lousy phone camera. will upload the rest when i get them from others :D

my hair's red brown kinda colour but i wish its brighter, too bad i'm taking up an office job so no outrageous colours and yeaaaah, bangs. idk why i cut bangs i just wanted to cut my fringe cos it was too long and ugly but ya. bangsbangsbangs. gonna have a prob for prom hairstyling lol

yay i love the CHAN FAMILY muacks! (p.s. daddy looks like sis's boyfriend LOL)

***

i can't believe both cindy and i just went to work without knowing what is expected of us. anyways i'm just glad they didn't separate us.. and i hope they won't do so in subsequent days to come. mr.supervisor is a very comical and nice guy i want him to remain as our supervisor~! late for work or lunch also nevermind cos he's never punctual for both hahahaha. the edwin guy from SP is also very nice! (and according to him our work is gonna be very slack) so just let this be it... they don't pay us a lot anyways. go there cui air con lo LOL. our sisters are gonna kill us cos they're having it so much harder HAHA

so like total noobs, we went for our first day at work thanks to her uncle! we were late for our reporting time for work and after lunch but neither are of concern to her uncle, who made us eat sososo much food omggggg! full T.T
and... we clocked in many many hours of "work", of which about 6hours are spent doing nothing at all. okay la we did some manual work of correcting the brochures and organising the contract templates and all. other than that, we just stoned, talked, read newspapers, laughed at supervisor, looked at how slack edwin was, went toilet many many times, watched episode 5 of You're Beautiful on my phone, stoned, talked, stoned, hmmm... slept, stoned... aiish guess you get what i mean now.

we got so bored we drew on Chris Brown and... camwhored o.o

LOL damn ugly !

ichi~

ni~

san! (FAILED LOL)

okay i still dare not judge the slackiness of my job yet, cos its merely the first day. real work is coming in tmr i think.. i just hope hope hope i remain in the department i'm in together with Cindy. prease noooo separate us and put me with some siao bimbo okk!

ohoh and i dislike the fact that our pay is lower before we get our certs and part of it have to be banked into our CPF accounts which means less $$$ into pocket!

***

noooo i so wanna see Jaejoong in IRIS season 2!

and the worst thing is Lee Byung Hyun is not gonna be in for season2 too cos he has to film G.I. JOE 2. wth! IRIS's plot is sooo much better than G.I. JOE

ohwell, money matters most. but still, Lee is like everything in IRIS...i wonder who they're gonna get to replace him. find another 39year-old with that cute smile, well-sculptured body and messy hairdo yet charismatic no matter how he looks...it's gonna be hard man. dots

wheeeee prom is coming! and i'm gonna die cos i'm taking half day's leave and i still got to work the next day. many many birthdays are coming too! ^^;;;

failed... terribly.

2009-12-02T23:36:00.012+08:00

HAHAHA- i have to start this post with this word... you'll understand why.

i can't remember when but it was during one of the days mugging in library during our long "break" before the start of A's when i was sitting at the same table with Cindy and some other woman. so we were all doing our own work when i looked up and saw Cindy laughing to her phone, so i asked her what it was. somehow, she chose to pm me cos we were both online on our laptops. and here was our conversation:

(5:02 PM) Cindy(:: the abel says the china woman bside me has a permanant pissed look on her face.
(5:02 PM) Cindy(:: -.-
(5:02 PM) chanwan'er: LOL the face
(5:03 PM) Cindy(:: dun hv wad!
(5:03 PM) Cindy(:: he asked me to look closely
(5:03 PM) chanwan'er: have lor
(5:03 PM) chanwan'er: lol
(5:03 PM) Cindy(:: hahaha i din do anyth to irrirate her right?

-break- cos i suddenly laughed so hard in the midst of the conversation. and what actually happened that made me laugh was this: (click on picture to enlarge!)

(5:04 PM) Cindy(:: wth
(5:04 PM) Cindy(:: i scared she saw
(5:04 PM) Cindy(:: lol
(5:04 PM) Cindy(:: damn ugly la
(5:04 PM) Cindy(:: ur drawing
(5:04 PM) chanwan'er: LOL i also very shocked at myself

-end-

lol. i was actually sorting out my pictures folder cos it's too messy.. and i came across that screenshot which made me smile to myself. come to think of it, many hilarious things happened in the library when we were studying. weird aunty getting pissed at us for being too noisy and started TALKING TO HERSELF, some weird guy laughing at his laptop screen like some lao teeko, another nut case we saw every weekend walking to and fro in front of our table, kenneth chew doing eye exercise, loo ruiyong calling out to his monkeys... hahaha.

i remember myself saying before that after A's i'll find myself missing our days mugging in the library. hmmm i guess i'm not in a sense MISSING it... but just reminiscing it now made me realise that those days had indeed made studying more bearable. =)

now... A LEVELS IS OVER SO JUST ROLL AWAY, TUPID LIBRARIANS! (~~they~~ she can't run anws, gorilla) ohohoh i cannot be so meeeeean, they were just doing their jobs to make the library a conducive place for studying. oh what saints huh..

watched IRIS on KBS just now and it is getting more and more exciting~ and confusing... all the conspiracy. what North Korea South Korea Japan US intelligence terms O.O

and i'm very happy DBSK appeared on Japan's FNS TV today. their collaboration for Rainy Blue is sososo good! especially especially Jaejoong's voice and Changmin's "It's a rainy bluuuuuue...." towards the end :D and Stand By U was at a higher level with the instrumental band and a few adlibs by Junsususu and Yoochun! awesome performances. ah i guess the vids are gonna be taken off from Youtube soon (damn the copyrights and all).. so before that happens, these perfs are really worth a watch and i've re-watched a few times alr! their voices blend so beautifully with the instruments and their harmonization was epic. subarashii~!

Rainy Blue (soloist for violin is very pretty~ lol)

Stand By U

anws life's really getting boring for me :O my sis just started work so most of the time i would be at home with my bro who keeps on gaming zzz. k i should ask me to go out walk with me some day wahaha. BUT still... ask me out, somebody!

*abish* BACK TO SORTING OUT MY PICTURES FOLDER!

p.s. i put the tagboard back hee.

Minami Shineyo

2009-12-01T21:38:00.013+08:00

hello hello. i've successfully spent the first day of my official six months or so break cooping myself up at home and completing the whole 16 episodes of You're Beautiful. thankfully it's only 16 episodes if not i would have turned into a mould or something rotting myself at home cos the drama is sososo addictive! and thankfully i only started watching it before my LAST PAPER. imagine how ggfied i would be if i started watching this before the start of A's. but i really really dislike the ending, wish it was longer and at least put the focus on the whole of A.N.JELL! miss Shinwoo and Jeremy :O

i can't remember when was the last time i was so hooked on to a drama- i wasn't even so addicted to Boys Over Flowers the other time when everybody else was... hahaha. a few good reasons why You're Beautiful is highly recommended for all to watch:

1. the casts were great! even Manager Ma :O i love everyone's acting cos they were so good. now i understand why sooo many people hate Afterschool's UEE.. her acting is shockingly good for a debut acting role that i REALLY HATED HER ROLE TO THE MAX. lol.

2. each and every episode never fails to disappoint, so much that i just want to keep on watching ep after ep.

3. usually when love triangles/rectangles/hexagons(O.O) are involved, i'll usually take sides and have a favourite couple in mind... but i couldn't for this because all three are so nice!

3. i think i spoiled my tear glands cos i cried n times while watching.. i think my bro must have thought i was crazy.

4. roles like Tae Kyung would have made me booo him at times when he was so mean and being so outrageously thin, but because it's Jang Geun Suk, he acted in a way that i cannot not like him when he was mean and even more so when he was sweet. also surprisingly he looked good in whatever he wore although he's really like a stickman! he's really one of the best korean actors out there, and although he's recognised as an actor, he can sing very very well! omo.. his cry scenes were so good that everytime he cried, i cried T.T

he even looks good in the weirdest hairstyles andand! his smirks are like the best thing even. okay maybe not cos nothing beats that smile heee.

5. Lee Hongki is sosososososo adorable that i just want to squish his cheeks HAHA. but then he actually looked so charismatic in the white tux and dancing with the princess.

not many people can pull off bleached hair looking good (just like JJ!) and without looking like some pai kia.. but Hongki yo~ i actually like him with bleached hair:D and his cry scene was crazy... tears flowed just like tapwater seeing him cry =/

6. the role of Kang Shinwoo is awesome. speechless as to how gentlemanly someone can be.. enough said. he deserves much much much better!!

and netizens actually commented that he looked like Yoochun. LOL.

not so much to meee but the gentleness in their eyes is definitely of some resemblance :D

7. AHH ALL THE OSTS ARE SO NICE! even if they are the same songs sang by different people. love Hongki's voice, love Jang Geun Suk's voice, love Park Shin Hye's voice~

wheeeeeeee i'm so happy to have completed this drama. shall watch again when DVD is out hee. yawns i better go rest my eyes now. i'm starting work soon so i got to enjoy this one week! drama marathon for IRIS here i come yo. what a switch from You're Beautiful LOL. but it has an equally great casts selection. got to catch up with the remaining episodes before ep7 airs on TV tmr :D

and more shopping for prom tooo. gave up looking for a new dress for prom cos it's so hard to look for a suitable one without being afraid that i'll end up wearing the same thing as someone else. guys are having it so much better cos all they have to get are suits of nice cuttings, decent shoes, contacts, and maybe do something to their hair... hmmm unless they want to look like these prom king materials:

LOL! k kidding.. but i'm really curious as to how guys would style themselves up!
and SO, since it's so hard for me to look for a prom dress, i've decided to re-wear what i wore for sec school's prom. saves me the $$$ but i still need to buy so many many many things!! luckily there's bursary, just for the last time (:

hahahahahahahahaaaaaaaaaa.

shall enjoy before i start work next Monday. (:

"What should I do?
My heart is cursing, because i can't even say i love you..."

♥ life

2009-11-26T20:26:00.007+08:00

i am delighted because the past few days i've been living the life that i've yearned for since the preparations for A's started. doing things i like, hanging out with good friends for purposes other than to study, slacking like never before... that's what life should be all about man! ^^

even more so, i'm delighted that DBSK finally made their public appearance performing as a group after a hiatus since A'Nation 09 in August. they were on Japan's NTV just now for the Best Hits Festival 2009!

i hope i'm not thinking too much but why do i feel this awkwardness between JaeChunSu and HoMin during the interview they had...there's just this different air about them. especially after viewing all the past DBSK vids in the early aftnoon, the contrast was so apparent to me... the fact that Changmin (who's spotting a new hairstyle) kept on sticking to Yunho and Jaejoong's unsmiling face didn't make things better :( and JJ seemed like he has shrunk :O

i hope things will turn out better while i try to avoid all the negativity some Cassies are presenting esp about how Japanese blogs all noted that all of them are living in different hotels now in Japan. they even departed from Korea on different planes wth... zzz SM booo. luckily, this performance saved things. just too short however.

towards the end Junsu did an adlib he has never done for Stand By U performances before when they sang the Oh oh Ohohhh~ part, i like :)

so i've headed town for the past two days and spent so much that i decided to just stay at home today for some video marathon :D plus im lazy haha. went out with Cindy on tuesday cos we wanted to go for a job hunt. but even before i stepped out of my house, we got a job! LOL. so we just went to shop for our stuff again. Far East Plaza has so little ppl now =.= after that met the guys, some of whom went for ball games and got themselves sun burnt (*ouch*) and we went to watch 2012! the movie was good, but sad...i cried for some of the emotional scenes which showed how desperate people were. SIGH

and then yesterday went down to Orchard with the peeps who were bored staying at home. finally saw the Christmas lightings at night! nicer than last year's.. the feeling was good after a whole afternoon of walking and tiring my legs hee. and my phone, grrrr... i sent it for repair yesterday night and had to wait a freaking ONE HOUR. hellooooo where's the efficiency? there weren't even a lot of people. waste time.. and i missed my 45minutes of my 9pm show roooar.

i wonder when i'm gonna pack all my stuff, wanted to do so today but was so hooked onto watching DBSK and a few eps of Heading To The Ground and Iris (omg at TOP's piercing eyes). and i caught the first epi of You're Beautiful too. hehe such sense of satisfaction. LOL

and! i just realised that my cable tv actually has KBS Channel, which means i can watch IRIS at high quality, big screen, with english subtitles! woohooooo :D i really like this drama for its plot other than the fact that Top is so undeniably attractive haha. it's full of action, tears, blood, love, vengeance... really an awesome thriller worth watching.

Kim Hyun Joon is an assassin who belongs to a top secret organization known as the "NSS" whereas T.O.P is an assassin who works in another secret organization located in the United States called "IRIS" and was ordered to kill Hyun Joon. Seung Hee is a psychological analyst who plays an important role in bring Hyun Joon into the "NSS." Jin Sa Woo is Hyun Joon's enemy and falls in love with Seung Hee as well.

&Kim Tae Hee is soo pretty!

lastly, i love DBSK. all five of them. SME can just shut up and stop sowing discord, forging signatures, talking crap and all. my favourite Bolero performance of all time:

- Hope till the end.

ohohohoh

2009-11-21T00:49:00.007+08:00

i'm shocked cos ppl actually came to my blog having googled strange stuff like 'lonesomecherry', 'lonesomecherries', 'waner jiaxin blogspot'. this sure is interesting for me to find out with that livefeed thingy :O

wheeeeee 3more papers to go! yet i can't believe i'm ending paper only on 30th Nov, tsk.. oki shan't complain.. think about BIO P1 LOL :D i'm actually counting down on my desktop... (say hello to my desktop and btw zackpee, it looks soo much neater than yours! haha)

10 more days to FREEDOM! lotsa plans right after A's, on 30th Nov itself after that freaking phy paper1 wahahaha. im damn excited right now, for everything in plan hehe.

ohohoh. and HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNETH CHEW JIA HUI (18th Nov)!

:)

this year's birthday quite unlucky cos A's period, so celebration simple simple jiu hao. BUT if i were you and my birthday falls on this day, i'll get a new birth cert with a different birth date cos THAT ECONS PAPER 2 WAS CRAP CRAP CRAPPPPPY and i would have felt so cursed. lol. anyways since your birthday fell on this week, you are forgiven for being so fierce to Serene and I during the movie just now!! grrrrr. haha.

went down to Orchard with twins before the movie just now and went to walk walk. i felt so minor down there suddenly cos things changed so much and i didnt where to go from where to where now :X SAD. ohoh there's this very beautiful purple xmas tree outside Ion Orchard! and we could even go inside the christmas tree and the interior was nice :)

okay after that we went for a movie. i'm gonna just put it blatantly that the movie just now, PARANORMAL ACTIVITY, sucked. 15minutes into the movie i was already feeling very uncomfortable cos the screen wasn't stable and i felt like vomiting already. plus the plot was stupid, which made things worse. $10 was only worth for the last minute or so of the movie, which was zzzzzz shocking like mad until i screamed -.- LOL.

headed down to kpt and lim kopi and talked some paranormal gossip... we all found out from zt that 海豹 is actually sea leopard O.O hahahah. totally skipped dinner (merely had waffle) cos i can't imagine myself stuffing food down at 11pm after watching that movie lol.

ohman. are people actually mugging now? i actually ~~wasted~~ spent my friday night away hahaha. but whatever, just 3 more to go!

andand i just can't stop listening to Youngbae's Wedding Dress. then he goes like...

"when the music starts, you'll make a vow... how i wish this day would never come."

"it's not me, it's not me..." :O so heartbreaking. i don't know why i like sad songs. and i really feel like whacking the guy in that mv! ahh.

alright, i better chiong library tmr cos i've lost the stamina to study already.
can't study at home now for nut's sake. the exams have stretched for too long a period already la. BYEE!

Wedding Dress

2009-11-13T16:59:00.013+08:00

:( this is very sad. he liked her, but she didn't know and was together with his friend... then she got married with his friend, and he had to sing at their wedding. very true to real life and i hope this won't happen to me raaaar. oh taeyang and that ring~! this song i likeyyy very very much hehe.

so many people are getting married these days. yesterday, my neighbour just got married...it seems like it was just yesterday when i first moved into Woodlands and that neighbour was still in secondary school. now, she's like 27 years old and 10years have passed...wow. i've grown up along with these neighbours who were once my age, and i see those aunties and uncles getting older by the day. soon, another 10years would pass and maybe i'm the one getting married then. toki wo tomete~ just stop time, can we?

oh. Mirotic concert at Shenzhen is cancelled. wth, SM ENTERTAINMENT? drama drama grrrr. so sad for all those international fans who bought the concert tix,air tickets,booked hotels,did visas and all. damn SM NEVER FAILS TO FAIL US. whatever la, just end this... can? cassies like you and me really want to see them back on stage together again, all five of them together...

as the Rising Gods Of The East, Dong Bang Shin Ki.
money makes people ugly. period.

just now was math paper and so i can burn all my math notes and wash myself off complex numbers matters from now on! and really, WHAT'S UP WITH ME AND ALL THE FUNCTION QUESTIONS. grrrr dumb or dumb.

so first week of A's over. can finally bid goodbye to the haunting GP and MATH! but the ordeal is coming up next week. i'm damn scared for my physics.

urghh. barely halfway through the battle yet, so i can't crumble although i'm having this freaking cough now and a slight running nose which is bugging irritating. how timely the viruses come by to attack me, thanks for that man =/

looking forward to after A's! i'm gonna do so many many things.
and there's another wedding dinner coming up on 6th December which i can attend cos i've got no exams wheee! BUT. priority on my list: SLEEP.

ok back to notes. ganbatte~

ohoh i like the new ch8 7pm show :)

how many left? ろく.

2009-11-03T23:10:00.010+08:00

my emotions have been taking a roller coaster ride recently.
whatever it is, i shan't let minor stuff like THAT pull me down. not me.

プレゼント。（：

aiish im not slacking. i just taking a break. a short one okay.

omo. omo. omo.
i love Brown Eyed Girls!

they're so underrated i feel, cos they're one of the few girl groups which has got all members who have their own personalities and can sing live very well. miryo's rap is the most imba out there amongst all the korean female rappers, serious. love jea's powerful voice as well. narsha is so pretty and she has a pretty voice. ah my favourite is Ga-In! wooots i'm so happy cos i haven't fangirl-ed a girl group for very very very long! b.e.g. ftw.

interesting commercial for Nivea by them, btw. korean commercials rock~

just as i'm very sick and tired of my life now, i'm too very sick of dbsk's lawsuit already. news which surfaced these day don't seem very positive.. a while before the court ruled that DBSK will continue their group activities soon, and i was so happy when i read about it. then! freaking SM Entertainment had to stir up a whole new wave of drama. ok SME is getting more and more ridiculous, by dragging in the the trio's involvement in the CreBeau business again zzz. it's like seriously watching a drama la. quick i want a happy ending soon :( so now with the SM-alleged statements of Yunho and Changmin supporting SM, i really don't know what to think anymore...although i very strongly believe that they don't truly think that way. arghs freaking irritating. i only know that...

HEAVEN'S POSTMAN IS COMING OUT (like finally!)

and of course,

5-3 = 0
mi duh yo, dong bang shin ki.

done. back to work.

END END END END END END. oh Buddha, A Levels need to end already, preeeease.

what am i doing...

2009-10-31T12:14:00.015+08:00

insignificant, unimportant, weak in everything, exploited, cheated in every way, not worth paying attention to, caring for, being accorded love and status by anyone. can i not care about whatever is going on, whatever i see, whatever i hear, whatever i'm encountering.. at this point in time it's not the right thing to do, yet i'm heck giving so much damn about it. what am i doing now? i feel so sh.t inside now, should i laugh at my folly or cry for my stupidity. but perhaps, my presence has indeed successfully evaporated into the thin air long ago, no longer acknowledged. after all, i'm still no one.
i shall not care anymore. shall not think anymore.
my brain capacity is supposed to be stuffed with my utterly disgusting poor concepts for physics, not any other thing else. i'm not capable of doing so, so i can't afford to.

SME is making me even more pissed now after reading the news of 0% profits distributed to TVXQ for their albums, concert DVDs, CDs sales, and appearances on TV programs. and so that means all the official goods i've bought, hoping to support the boys, are all used to support SM ENTERTAINMENT's pathetic efforts to bail themselves out from a lawsuit of an obvious human rights violation. such a freaking disgustingly greedy entertainment company.

nobody is here.
10 days more. can i?

みんな、大丈夫？

2009-10-21T22:14:00.008+08:00

Facebook users beware.

Psychologists are now probing a new kind of addiction called Facebook Addiction Disorder (FAD).

According to Joanna Lipari, a clinical psychologist at the University of California, Los Angeles who was interviewed for a CNN report, here are some signs that you are addicted to Facebook:

1. You lose sleep over Facebook. When using Facebook becomes a compulsion and you spend entire nights logged on to the site, causing you to become tired the next day.

2. You spend more than an hour a day on Facebook. Lipari said it is difficult to define how much is too much when it comes to Facebook usage, but that an average person need only spend half an hour on the site.

3. You become obsessed with old loves or exes you reconnect with on Facebook.

4. You ignore work in favor of Facebook. This means you do not do your job in order to sneak time on Facebook.

5. The thought of getting off Facebook leaves you in cold sweat. If you try going a day without Facebook and it causes you stress and anxiety, this means you need help."

source: abs-cbnNEWS.com

as you can see, i highlighted the third one because i LOL-ed at this lolololololololololololol. =.=
and. the last one is just ridiculous.
i guess this pretty much explains all the Mafia Wars going on every second on facebook o.o luckily i'm not addicted to it! (at least I THINK i'm not...) almost got hooked onto doing all the facebk quizzes last time. but the novelty wore off very quickly and i got bored soon after, thank goodness.

blah. whatever. not feeling very good recently....

talk about ambiguity. i don't like it. i never liked it. and i don't know what i'm waiting for what i'm doing where i'm heading what future holds for me and you and us. i don't know why i'm holding on to an invisible grip...

talk about love, i haven't been showing enough love towards my parents. daddy isn't the daddy 10years ago with such incredible stamina and capable of piggy-backing us anymore, neither is mommy the mommy alike 10years ago, still able to catch up with us kids when we run.. till when must i learn that i cannot take them for granted? no matter how they do not show it, i suppose tiny gestures like talking to them about schoolwork or spending more time on the dining table over dinner still do matter in reassuring them that kids like us still love them although we've grown up. but i really haven't been doing so... exams exams exams. blame it on exams. nah. excuses. blame it on myself...

daddy, please get well soon :(

20 more days to the big A's.
i hope to do my parents proud then... whatever it takes me to.

everyone please take care.

there's an end to everything

2009-10-16T23:01:00.015+08:00

so, it was farewell assembly. i can still remember myself sitting down there in the hall attending the seniors' farewell assembly last year and complaining how retarded it was. but to personally attend one meant for myself and my fellow companions who, like me, are about to face supposedly one of the most important examinations of our lives, i could not help but to feel emotional despite the lousy PA system of the school (as usual), the boring presentation of awards and the falling mike stand when the choir was performing (LOL)

the assembly wasn't fantastic at all actually, but love the Chemistry and Physics departments.

Chem dept was so cute. they did a parody of MJ's Heal The World.

Miss Lee came out first and she was giving that very awkward look.. haha.

and their dance, omg... DANCE. i totally laughed like crazy seeing Mr Alvin Yong danced, his actions were like some.. superstar wannabe performing at a getai? LOL.

but the funny thing is before that, he performed a beautiful piano piece on an elegant white grand piano, looking damn charming in his black vest. it was such a contrast from his ahem usual sloppy appearance, so i was rather stunned actually.

so i say next time my son must learn a musical instrument! lol.

and i feel that the J1s who performed on the gu zheng, liu qin and cello were so cool cos they were guys! O.O

Physics department was the BEST.

they came up with this video and when they showed the intro, i was like telling Bryan "hmm.. isn't this like the beginning of Super Junior's Sorry Sorry MV"? i was thinking that maybe they used that MV's beginning cos it's quite cool.. but before we could even say anything else, suddenly the song played and!

it showed the words "Super Seniors- Study Study". HAHA.

fyi if you haven't heard of this song, here's the song!

the whole hall went bonkers and burst out in laughter after that when it showed the teachers dancing very very comically to SuJu's song and changing the lyrics of that song going from "Sorry Sorry" to "Study Study".
and it was damn cool cos they constantly switched between Suju dancing and the teachers dancing with the same dance steps and formation but totally different effects! can you imagine how hard i was laughing when i was looking at how gorgeous Choi Si-won was, then suddenly bling! the screen showed CCM posing!! hahahaha. CHAN CHEE MENG rocks big time. how i wish i can see him dance that live~! omg.

(edit: i knew this would come...somebody recorded part of the vid and uploaded it! rocking~ click here)

had econs extra lesson from 1030am to 130pm after that which was such a spoiler, but Ms Kat already let us off early anws since she decided that we were not in the mood to study..

a final CLASS OUTING aft that which surprisingly many ppl went. our class outings never worked out with people more than what our fingers can count...seriously. so for the first (and perhaps, most probably, for the last) time, we had like 19people going? that excludes Joyce and Kendrick who joined us too :)

hahaha i don't know how long we all spent inside Pizza Hut, demanding for this that and making hellllot of noise, pissing the waitresses off! but their attitude and service suck la. to think we're each paying for 10% service charge. LEON TAN, GO COMPLAIN~ lolol.

Sheryl and I left aft that to meet TAN YUEWEN whom i haven't seen for so so so long :)

but it was a pity i didn't get to stay with the class longer.. moreover that probably was the last time i can ever feel such class dynamics and vibe. that's 2408.

photos taken using Joyce's camera =)

***

now, it's time to put an end to everything.

last year when i first came into school, Clement Cheng, the principal and many other teachers kept on telling us to "Have the end in mind", constantly re-using the words so much that i felt was unnecessary. but i guess it is because i did not really do so that it seems like this ending has come too fast. i regret not being grateful enough for what i have in school. for the teachers, for my cca, for the class.

no more spazzing around with Jasmine and Mel with twins, no more scanning for the class, no more Lim Minghan exploiting me, calling me all sorts of weird names (the latest being "wanie", "wei ni wei wo", "wanieo", "wapaopao" ?!?!), laughing at my reaction aft being tickled and seeing him eat his favourite food (that is everybody's food), no more Xuewen flagging around Jeryl and him teaching me physics, no more Xuewei and his funny hokkien comments and him going "fail liao la fail liao la", no more Wen&Wei's surround system, no more Ryan's and Junyoong's randomness in class, no more Jason's contagious laughter, no more Monica being loud&crazy, no more listening to JunHao's discontentment about every corner of AJC, no more Sicheng to randomly ask "So.... How's As?" and calling me moonwan'er (moonwalker) cos of the way i run, no more Pradeep to bang my head against Twins', draw on my arms and laugh along at Casey Goh with, no more Clinton and his "mean square speed" "speed mean square" etc etc, and him to teach me math and listening to him sing hokkien songs, no more Leon to go home with and to suan us and inspire us with his dream of becoming a doctor, no more Bryan to see snatching Leon's food and awe us with his voracious appetite (2persons for 2persons meal at Pizza Hut o.o), no more Jeryl&her loudness in class, no more Andrea and her sudden comments made with her sweet airy voice, no more seeing Jiaxin eating openly in class, no more TengHui eating tauhway and singing along, no more guessing of whether Yude will pon school the next day, no more Miss Kat and her lame jokes, no more Miss Lee and her extraaaaaaaaa chemistry lessons, no more printing of stacks and stacks of Chemistry notes for the class.... no more.

because today, i've graduated from AJC. it's the end of my official JC life...

now that it's time to part, here's my last goodbye.

thanks to all for giving me the school life that i've had, love ya guys! :)

good luck for the upcoming examinations, i'll see you all next week (?!)...and on 10th November 2009.
will not be forgotten. (:

THIRTY

2009-10-10T22:49:00.017+08:00

THIRTY DAYS TO A's! THIRTY DAYYYYYS!

THREEEEEEE ZEROOOOOOOOO!

omo~ *dies*

haha. =.=

and then coming friday is farewell assembly :(

i don't know, i just have this very very uneasy feeling about graduation. it seems like everything is heading too fast. it's like it's just after midyr exams, and then sept hols came, then prelims came and went, then suddenly there's this inflow of things that need to be done. like seriously suddenly there're so many many many things to do. but now... we're all graduating? ROOOAR. am i gonna wake up tmr to find myself taking care of my own baby??

LOL lousy analogy to describe time.

but yea. time.. i can safely say that it is an absolutely inefficient allocation concept. market failure? umm nono. human life failure. FAIL LA. some people find themselves having ample of it, yet others are yearning for and really need more of it. dang... no government can ever solve this human life failure.

(pradeep's bday celeb sabotage! +leon isn't in this photo idk where he went lol)
sigh. i guess i'll really miss my class, no matter the differences. ours isn't exactly the best class-we don't have fantastic results (sheesh we're even under-performing), we don't have very good class dynamics, and there's even some tiny bit of class politics... but there's really no other class like ours.

i felt it during class civics on tuesday when Ms Kat gathered all of us, asking us to sit in a circle and got each of us to talk about someone in the class. i chose Minghan to talk about cos he's really a very unique person in every way, and even if we don't keep in contact anymore after graduation (uh better not! you said you're gonna invite me to your already-planned-liao-wedding~), i suppose i won't forget this person who already randomly shove past me in Sec 3 (dance camp)! haha. and then Ms Kat was creating all the nonsense again, imitating Monica and Minghan which looked so funny. i laughed so hard that i teared and was suddenly reminded of something that i've always been taking granted for- all the unique personalities of 24/08. then suddenly it was Jiaxin's turn to talk and she talked abt Sheryl, Serene and I. i don't know why but my tears couldn't stop flowing then when i thought of all the fun 4 of us had during NDP period. it was quite embarrassing actually...crying in front of everybody else and Ms Kat even joked about how others who might walk by would think that she had bullied me =.= lol.

AJC is certainly not the dreamland that i've yearned for, and the school alone is enough to make me hate it. but i don't anymore...

of course, i can ask for more...but i won't do so. with the bunch of classmates that i have and a form teacher like Ms Kat, these are already enough for me to bring away from that old building that nobody wishes to stay in, and safely keep it at the back of my head.

ahh so sentimental. suddenly feel so nostalgic now that farewell assembly is nearing...

well, this is life!

once we're born, everything we do and every step we take cannot be undone anymore.

life is indeed an irreversible equation...we can only move on.

we always say we don't cherish the past, and this is precisely because we always groan and complain about what we have to do in the present! right?

"cherish the horrible days MUGGING FOR ALEVELS? you must be kidding me!"

i can foresee people having this kinda reaction. lol. but really if we'd look further, how many A's can we take? (i mean provided we don't have to retake...*touch some high-crasss wood!!!*)

it may sound ridiculous now, but instead of us mourning about how we didn't cherish the days studying in JC a few years later, why not take everything in a positive view for now? what we're doing is something that we're gonna look back and think about in the future.

ah. easier said than done.

for me, i know that i'll miss JC life after graduating... but i certainly wouldn't want to go back to this kinda life again. missing it and wanting it back are totally two different matters. haha.

so i guess after A's is over, i'll look back and reminisce our mugging days in the library (:

p.s. loveeee Wheesung's new songs! Vocalate~

everything's gonna be over soon... (:

2009-10-04T22:23:00.009+08:00

MIROTIC CONCERT IN SHANGHAI over the weekends.
awesome 5 were back together as one after a long hiatus.
changmin's new hair looking great, junsu back on stage again.
chinese cassies were great. yoochun cried again&again.
and eventually all of them cried, even the maknae :(

obviously, SM ent. can't afford to lose TVXQ like nuts.
they announced another Mirotic concert stopover at Shenzhen when everybody thought the Shanghai stop was supposed to be the last one.
on one hand, yay! cos it isn't over yet..
but on the other hand, SME you suck big time.

Shanghai's Red Ocean.

Junsu in the middle. Insa perf i suppose?
♥!

plugging in to my DBSK playlist again...reminisce old times.

Tokyo Dome DVD's reaching me soon, but i'll only watch it after exams.
동방신기, 믿어요 :)

***

MID-AUTUMN FESTIVAL. it was rather unlike the usual festive season...

there was no bright moon, ate no mooncakes, no tea.
played no playground, no catching, no bball.
just a few boxes of candles, sparklers, and a few good friends.
peaceful night spent at the topmost storey of a random multi-storey carpark :)
(well it's peaceful minus away the craziness of SOMEONE who shan't be named coughcoughchickencough!)

i don't think any random person will be able to make out what this is.BUT. that random person doesn't need to know.. heheh.
!!
CCCCC~! ♥!

counting down..35days.
it's a month more to stepping into that dreaded battlefield.
but everything's gonna end soon, it's a month and three quarter to FREEDOM!
shave all distractions aside, focus focus focus.
and of course i won't forget to base everything on faith as well.

my sis's chionging hard for her O's too.
wish her all the best she really has been preparing vvv hard for the exams, haven't seen her so hardworking before :D

must not disappoint myself, my parents, everyone.
and it's gonna be a barrier to break...between me and myself.

CAN DO IT, CHAN WAN'ER!
chan wins everyone alrighto!
CAN DO IT, EVERYONE!

kimi dake ni tsutaetai yo
kanarazu asu wa kuru kara~~ (random lyrics popping out o.o)

RAR. GANBATTE ! :)

--

2009-09-26T00:14:00.020+08:00

元気を出してください・・・かならず明日は来るから。

no matter how dark it is at night, we always see sunlight after that don't we?
sunrise follows after that seemingly eternal darkness..
just like how winter eventually turns into spring.
helpless as i may be in doing anything,please just tc...

genki o dashite~
FIGHTING.

:(

2009-09-24T17:21:00.007+08:00

i'm having a very very very bad feeling about my prelim results.

screwed up GP p2 real bad, and i guess i'm not gonna do any better for p1 either.

why is it always like this? i was feeling so happy yesterday, was just beginning to enjoy what i love to do... but school. sigh. it always has got ways to take everything back from me. everything.

don't even feel like taking alvls anymore.. like i'm so not ready.

honestly speaking, i'd rather spend another year in school than to do badly for alevels.

well maybe two more years? then i can join my guy friends to go university when they come out of the army...

now what am i thinking?

i really really don't know what to expect from myself anymore, what to do what to do what to do.

WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW. 40+ more days....

no one, there's just a fool.

win or lose, there's no freaking love upon this shelter anymore...

2009-09-23T19:38:00.007+08:00

omg ♥

full song's finally out! instantly became my fav.. you know, i already love Colors to bits...but i actually like this song more than Colors~! from the intro to the chorus to the bridge! sheeesh Jejung's and Junsu's composition, Jejung's arrangement, Yuchun's lyrics and rap... why so awesome?! well i can't help but to imagine HoSuMin's voices in the song as well rather than just JaeChun.. if this is the music direction TVXQ is taking for their 5th Japanese album, it'll sure surpass all their previous albums. I WANTTT! ♥ hahaha. i really can't can't can't wait for the release of Soulmate's new single next week.

やばい！！（*。*）

i was in front of the TV from 1pm till 7pm. finished watching 3DVDs of AATVXQ3! 3more to go.. can't take it anymore so not gonna continue watching for now, and i don't know when im gonna continue watching it either. LOL. watching their last year's Mirotic comeback mini concert on the DVD just now, it suddenly crossed my mind that it was around this period last year that i was so excited for their Korean comeback album, spazzing over teaser videos that were slowly being released, and being shocked visually by Yoochun's new hair (lol)~~ but now they're all doing solo activities, i miss their comeback period!

love this fanvid, captures all the awesomeness of their Mirotic live perfs:

:DD because of Cindy, im getting addicted to Mirotic all over again...lol.

ohman. just as i was beginning to enjoy my life now, it's back to school tmrrrrrrrrrrrr.

well before i get drawn away from reality, it's 40+ days to A Levels. =(
&i ought to go clear up study table now it's turning into a rubbish dump!

HTTG ep5 is gonna air today soon! YAY.

the plot's getting more exciting with Cha Bong-gun going into a mental institute?! hahaha

+ i don't know how many times i've said this but really, this year korean boy bands are seriously getting all the shhhhhhh ! O.O SuJu Kangin fighting! DBSK fighting okk!

ALL THE BEST TO THOSE STILL HAVING EXAMS. ganbatte mas ^^

2009-09-19T19:42:00.012+08:00

suddenly feel like coming here to type something ^^
one more day of exam to go! BUT there's still the big thing coming up... -.-
man this is fast fast voooom.

tsk i can't believe korean netizens actually drove Park Jaebeom out of 2PM.
that sucks alright! a casual comment made online years ago can actually blow up and ruin a talent of his career. i like Jay most out of 2PM...how can they do whether their leader?? zomg. crazy korean netizens. things arent doing fine for korean boy groups this yr..while girl groups are getting all the glam O.O i rly rly hope for the best for DBSK's lawsuit.

okk! group photos from birthdays celebrated like last week? lol.

the rest are on facebook im lazy to go into details. memories, albeit not shared, will be kept! (:

recently i got hooked to watching movies. good movies i mean.
i feel so happy after watching a good movie..whether or not the ending is happy.

yesterday, watched: !
vvvvv good movie based on the novel. i'd love to read it some day after exams..cos the storyline is so incredible. well, although i've not read the book and i didnt know what to expect, i saw the trailer last time and thought that the movie's gonna be good. the movie didnt disappoint me, it pulled off the complex storyline i suppose. so nice and touching. vvv sad also, made me cry =(
Richard McAdams! he was awesome, so charasmatic haha. i believe the book's gonna have so much more emotions.. after all, a movie is still a movie. gonna get the book some day! =) but this is really so worth watching in a cinema, i dont mind watching it in theatre for another time just like The Proposal lol.

and you may not believe it but i've just finished watching another movie: Tada, Kimi wo Aishiteru.
another very very beautiful movie. it has got breathtaking sceneries from Japan to New York...and somehow the romance going on in the movie felt cute to me. maybe because Ai Ostuka's song starred in this? LOL. but it also has a sad ending.. sigh. i like Hiroshi Tamaki's acting here! haha.

i rmb watching A Millionaire's First Love some time last week before the exams too. Hyun Bin is hot LOL

dang over-dosage of romance movies la! o.o the love portrayed in these movies are all so beautiful and unbelieveable and umm how to say...big.... but somehow feels very unrealistic to me. if only these things do happen right! haha

so weird. prelims are still going on and im here still watching movies LOL.
nah it's just a way of resting my mind...and when im upset or pissed, i watch movies to cool myself down. i was feeling quite bad just now cos sth not very pleasant happened, but everything is okay now (:

Heading To The Ground seems good to me so far. i was thinking of waiting for eng subs to be released then download it to watch aft exams...but man the chinese subbers are fast!! once an episode got aired, a few hours later chinese subtitles for the drama will be released wooohooo KUDOS TO THEM! felt so good watching almost real-time ^^ look at Yunho!

hahaha really like posing for some sportswear CF right! rah Yunho is a good good goody first-time actor! but im quite upset with the drama's ratings in Korea, but ahh nvm, who asks Kim Bum's drama (which im tempted to watch too) to be aired same time as Yunho's =.= and and Go Ara's eyes are vvvv pretty! hooooooo. i learnt to say the word 'soccer' in Korean all thanks to this T.T lol

and lately there seems to be so much news of Jejung&Yuchun with their new single promotions, and Yunho with his debut in drama..so much so that Junsu and Changmin kinda got overshadowed! i miss TVXQ as five...and not to forget the result of the lawsuit thingy is coming out at the end of this month =x RAR. nvm! here's Jun-chan and Changminnie! :D

i really miss Junsu on stage! &his soulful singing.

but for now, i shall get down to some study business. BOOO

lastly, i really don't like to force a smile and pretend everything is alright when clearly it is not.

Colors ~Melody and Harmony~

2009-09-05T17:43:00.008+08:00

Right now, somewhere, someone
is in pain, all alone
Passing through a sleepless night
Until the light shines on your heart
Let's nestle close together, so that we could sleep
Like a melody and harmony in love

For someone’s sake
we are here
Although we can only achieve small things
Even just for 1 second
We still want to stop all the tears in this world
And turn them all into smiles

Keep loving, and keep walking,
We've been believing that we will be able to convey these overflowing feelings
Even before we were born, we knew that we would meet
And that we would be searching for our dreams together

The moment when we are able to compose the sparkling sound
We will be able to forget all the sorrow
Melody and harmony
You are always by our side
Giving us courage and hope

Thanks to you
Thank you forever
These glittering feelings are your gifts to me
You've taught me how to support each other, to watch over each other
And that I’m not lonely

The love that was piled up
is riding on the melody
I want to convey it to you
Forever and ever

My music is my life
For you, for you, smile
Because our hearts will link together
My life is wonderful
Forever, forever

Starting from here

Keep loving, and keep walking
We have been believing that we will be able to
convey these overflowing feelings

Thanks to you
Thank you forever
These glittering feelings are your gifts to me

The love that was piled up
is riding on the melody
I want to convey it to you
Forever and ever

(translated by: linhkawai@lj)

Happy 35th Anniversary Hello Kitty!
LOL. actually i wont care for kitty's anniversary albeit its my fav. in sanrio!
but because jejung and yuchun sang for its theme song..i cannot not care.
ordered my single already! yipeee :Dcd+dvd version with that black and white jacket photo.ohman i so want that cd version with the colorful closed eyes jacket photo too!ahhhh $$.$$

***

&photos taken back at RS on teachers' day celeb!

mswong toned down on her makeup, still looking as radiant as ever!
somehow i find this photo very cool lehhh hahah.

shurong! been always having the same height as her.but now i think im shorter =(
hahaha i can't imagine how ridiculously boring 4/4E will be without andy neo!
mdm saro! genius. square root without calculator LOL

going back to rs on teachers day celeb felt quite good..moreover we could just go in like that without the !@#$%^&* security guard making hell lot of noise. lol. and last year we all didnt go back cos the school close early -__- saw lotsa lotsa familiar faces and rah! it dawned on me that yea.. we've all grown up. many teachers have left. mr desmondgoh, ms onglayhoon, ms nora.. all of whom are teachers i adore.. they're not teaching in rs anymore T.T
BUT! so happy we managed to see ms bridgettewong (and her tall physics teacher boyfriend) and mdm saro (and her medal) ! :D

okkk! hols are here and i've got a 3 and a half papers to prepare for the remaining... 8 days! gp and econs p2 down. many many many more to go. JIAYOU!! ^^

no more blogging until end of prelims.

till then, so many many birthdays :O I AM REALLY BROKE NOW.
so... shall end wishing these very important people!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SERENE AND SHERYL! (6th sept)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABEL! (7th sept)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHANWANXIAN! (10th sept)

ROAR im done so you should be done reading too. now, go study! haha =)

((:

2009-09-01T20:39:00.007+08:00

here's some encouragement from the moonwalker?
i love this song. yoochun too. heh.

Keep The Faith, Baby, Yea
Because It's Just
A Matter Of Time
Before Your Confidence Will Win Out
Believe In Yourself
No Matter What It's Gon' Take
You Can Be A Winner
But You Got
To Keep The Faith

counting down... 1 more day? OMG! 1 more day!!!!
can i like jump off the building now.

haha. IJ's starting their prelims tmr! goodluck peeeps! =)
next up good luck to me and others! rawr so scary! dots.

okkk fighting! :D

and The Proposal is very very nice i like it vvv much! i like Sandra Bullock's acting in the movieeee haha. very sweet storyline, made me teared. damn funny also..i havent enjoyed a movie like this for so long. from the beginning till the end of of the movie i was so engrossed! and i laughed like some crazy girl until my voice went hoarse. liang teh saved me ^^ LOL

it's nearing..

2009-08-30T20:42:00.005+08:00

im like almost mentally dead now. too drained of my brain juice after a whole day of econs.. but it isnt getting me anywhere near completing my revision! o.o

roar. and why does the library have to be opened at 10am.. it deprives me of my previous sleep time and i reckon by the time the a'levels end, my dark circles will be permanently plastered under my eyes. ugly ugly ugly like some.... cockroach. =.=

anws! nowadays everyone has been chionging library and i always see the same old ppl there. today was studying with cindy and ming hao, and surprisingly saw minghan there as well with his khoo. zomg... minghan at library?! haha.

and.. i had McDonalds Happy Meal just now! LOL.

thanks to my clumsiness that i forgotten to bring money out and i've got like only 4bucks in my wallet. felt so embarassed cos the person was like laughing at me when he say, "err...choose a toy?" HAHA. doraemon toy okay. quite cute! ^^

whee. last minute went to buy teachers' day card and Popular literally went out of it cos apparently everybody else went to buy cards at the very last minute.. like meeeee. BUT some clever ppl managed to find a place which sells cards at not very high prices! and managed to get all the cards in the end :D

tmr teachers' day! sure a lot of ppl pon school.

and my throat is still feeling damn uncomfortable zzz.

ohoh Happy 9th Anniversary to BoA's debut!

it's really amazing how someone at an age of mere 22 can achieve so much.. she debuted in 2000 at the age of 14 and has since been a force in the Korea and Japan music industry.. and what was i doing then when i was 14? o.O HAHA. anyways, i was into her music since like end primary6, so i kinda followed her throughout the most of her music career...she's the artiste who got me into Jpop and Kpop =) i kinda miss BoA in Japan and Korea, but nonetheless wish her best in the US music industry! new album's coming up.. sounds quite anticipating

:DD

i remembered someone from ASD said this, "Worrying is like a rocking chair- it gives us something to do.. but it gets us no where! So, do you want to advance?"

YES I DO.

stop worrying. get down to work.

do my own revolution. show actual proof.

f(x)- what's the variable?

2009-08-29T23:15:00.010+08:00

throat's feeling very uncomfortable and im starting to cough...AH i don't wanna fall sick!

recently, minghan is so into the heavy metal genre that he keeps on sending me weird songs, trying to make me like heavy metal. LOL. okay so i know now.. heavy metal isnt just about "KILL DEATH RAPE" as in the lyrics of Satsugai in the Detroit Metal City movie.. but still, not gonna be a fan of screaming and LKW-soundalike growling. HAHA

SM is debuting a new girl group- f(x)!

i was like... girl group again? LOL. ever since Wonder Girls became hot popular with Nobody, it seems like there's this influx of girl groups into the Korean music industry- with new groups and also old ones making their comebacks. SNSD, 2NE1, T-ara, Kara, 4Minute, Brown Eyed Girls, Jewelry.

kinda sick of girl groups already. esp those girly girl groups... 2NE1 is different. and we need more groups like them!

sounds hot:

2 youngest member are actually born in 1994. ZOMG. i can't stand how they just rip these people off their youth..

and as much as i hate SME to the core now for being so inhumanely mean to its artists who slogged their lives out to earn for them, it can't be denied that SM always has ways to put together successful groups =x hmm just like how they hit the jackpot with DBSK. and also gave us Super Junior, Shinhwa, SHINee. so... im actually looking forward to f(x)!

and i like G-DRAGON's HEARTBREAKER! it's so addictive i kept on listening to it.

some cool hair btw, new trend coming up which is set by GD?

oh your my heart heart heart heart heartbreakerrrrrr!

:DD

fighting!

2009-08-22T23:14:00.008+08:00

having a very bad headache now. possibly because i went to watch DISTRICT 9 right after eating a full dinner. damn.

anyways, went to library to study before going to senja for prayer mtg and then went back to library where bry and minghao were. rah. then saw yongjie when we were leaving so went for dinner together. the guys....they....color-discriminate meee! especially serene's heng zzz. so apparently they were all wearing white lor and i was wearing black. and then i nearly fainted when kenneth and junrong came cos they were wearing white too, gave BREAD~~talk~~ another reason to suan me.

dinner-ed at foodcourt where ry came and tada~ i ate faster than kennethchew! zomg it's like since a godzillion number of years i've finished my food faster than guys ^ ^ left bry and yj to cinema aft that where abel and dk were waiting for us. lalala DISTRICT 9! it's m18 not because it has explicit sexual content, not because it's gore, not because it's horror. but man i was horrified...cos the scenes were so overly disgusting. lol. and i watched it aft a full meal okay. i think the guys also felt very dots cos the opening was already like a documentary and the whole movie was a bit...senseless? it actually has a storyline, not like warehouse (LOL), but just not my type of movie and i didnt like it =/

felt so nauseatic after the movie. and when all of us started to stone again before going home at like 10pm, dk said sth that really hit me "EH go home la go home...now it's not the period after alevels LEH". HA hate it so! but reality is this =(

i dont care im gonna stone all i want. AFTER A LEVELS.

alright im being so technical in this post. i cant think much now my headache is really quite bad la. ARGH.

but! before i leave...i want to say i absolutely love JaeChun's new single cover. i think it's my favourite cover from them although it's not the whole group! so classy oh soulmates~

COLORS ~Melody and Harmony~

and A-Nation Live tour at Tokyo tmr!

(edited 23/08: A-Nation Tokyo Ajinomoto Stadium)

Tohoshinki had a big stage to themselves for some full 8songs this year! and they came right before Ayumi, who performed 8songs too and closed the live! heh vvvv happy for them.

and i love Ayu! queen of jpop is so adorable, she wore a toho shirt and brought a green toho towel during her performance! haha :D

credits: Team Ayu blog

was rather impressed by the strength of Bigeast this year. the ocean of blue lightsticks (blue is the theme color of the A Nation concert) instantaneously turned purple when Tohoshinki appeared all thanks to Bigeast and their red lightsticks! so nice

recently i like them being active in Japan more because things are in the sense more cheery in Japan than in Korea all because of the SME lawsuit thingy, while although Yunho is filming for Heading to the Ground in Korea now and im kinda excited for it to be aired... anws, 1st hearing in court is over..and the next will be in September. rooting for the trio! good stuff Korean cassies are doing, they're boycotting SM! IM SO IRRITATED WITH SME CAN THEY STOP ALL THIS RUBBISH AND GIVE THESE GUYS THEIR LIVES BACK.

so next week the truncated timetable starts...everything is becoming so intensive and everybody's starting to go crazy! REALLY. man this is scary..ha.

ms kat is being very protective of us recently, she said we shouldnt be so stressed up now if we arent doing well, because it's not good to peak so early. so according to her, she wants to take the infant industry approach for protectionism, becaushhhhhh...she believes we've got the ability to ~~CA (comparative advantage)~~ SEE 'A'! HA! i like i like this analogy :D

ms kat! the poster we did for the teachers' day notes is the largest amongst all! happy anot! hahaha

okay fighting! bbbbbbbbbbye shall slp nw oyasumi nasai~ =)

時ヲ止メテ..the time has stopped

2009-08-16T20:47:00.006+08:00

HAHAHA i love this CM cos i love the song! 時ヲ止メテ... new single prease! :D

the song fits the cm so well just like wasurenaide i like it vvvmuch! lol

ohoh and i bought this cute lil thing to put in all my small small stuff HAH ELEPHONEE SO CUTE !

okay byebye!

p.s. im so brain dead

***

2009-08-14T23:50:00.007+08:00

hello! 2weeks left to prelim! SCREAM! AHHHHHH!

die. n08's physics paper3 was so hard.

this week has been so sucky..had 4tests and im trying very hard to catch up on my sleep time. almost just died on tuesday with 1.5hrs of chem test and immediately after that 2.5hrs of econs mock paper 2 with 3essays.

OOOOO.

so no mood now..i seriously don't know how to assure myself that i will do well for the A's.

BUT HAHA. ALL ABOUT DONG BANG SHIN KI 3~ 9hours of DBSK, super rocking!

wait till after prelims i will take a ONE DAY BREAK (only?! nani ka?!) and go for a video marathon..meanwhile, the nice DVD case can rest safely in my drawer =)

PICTURE OF YOU MV.

not my fav. song in Mirotic album, but this MV's super nice! love the boys in white wuhu.

scenes are set in Saipan, the place's so lovely i would love to go there some day!

and...nothing beat Junsu's smile! not forgetting he's the one who wrote the lyrics of the song! hehehe and the blue's so breathtaking ^^

lastly, i love XIAHKI :D

so cute rar! ❤❤❤! LOL

weekend's gonna suck. weeks to come are gonna suck too.
OH, WHAT IS LIFE.

hi, happy birthday.

2009-08-09T15:00:00.012+08:00

somehow, i don't have the high and hip feel for national day this year! T.T
take a rewind back to last year at this time of the day, jiaxin,twins and i were at the Singapore Flyer rooftop camwhoring, talking cock, playing cards, rotting ourselves away, while occasionally grabbing some mr.bean at a storey down. then we went up on the floating platform..in front of the amazing audience clad in red, we yelled S-I-N-G-A-P-O-R-E, S-I-N-G-A-P-O-R-E ! AH i so miss last year's NDP~ and fireworks were great =)

anyhow, celebrations still went on in school. this time without performances cos of the h1n1 thingy! but celebrations was rather okay i felt. i enjoyed seeing all the video presentations put up by the classes. some were quite creative. 08/08's one was smart! heh they so deserved the first prize ya. i think ours was not bad too, thanks to those who edited the video! it was fun doing filming all the short clips for that video. and i still cannot get over RYAN's counting for that ACES day cut. them! haha.

OHYA. econs makeup tutorial right after ndp celebration was such a spoiler!

went out with some peeps of 2408 after that. spent like freaking one hour alone looking for a place to lunch! LOL at how arguments can break out just because of lunch. so 24/08 HAHA. in the end? we split up cos there was absolutely no way to find a decent place to accommodate all of us, everybody else had early release. wanted to watch movie after that but tickets were all sold out at hub! zz. just not a right day. went to pool and ion orchard after that for a while. =) ion is beautiful, but things sold doesn't really suit us youngsters lol.

some photos!

sicheng and pradeep !
ignore my face and focus on PRAD's lolol
i like the merlion tattoo!
minghan and his tattoo on his nose lmao. and i see xuewen's small face heh

haha the dorks! lol

bryan's tie on minghan!
and when i passed my cam to lim minghan....he....

took 10000000 self shots.
and these!

WANER SAYS: STOP IT, I TELL KHOO THEN YOU KNOW AR.MINGHAN: o.o, =.=, -____-
HAHA xD

***
yesterday! had an outing with the rs clique. before that went to the library to do some work. MING HAO AND BRYAN!! i find it very very interesting how they both can clique so well LOL. they really can talk! and then andy joined us later. bryan, as usual, got hungry very easily and went with ryan for lunch. shortly after bryan and his subset (ryan) came back from lunch, we three went off to meet the rest for outing.

twinsie! PSPSPSPSPSPSPSPS. lolol. they said their mom was sick so couldn't join us. AH~ so we met up with cindy,kenneth,zhentao. headed off to marina square. had a hard time deciding on the movie to watch cos practically all movies were selling fast. i wanted to watch UP lor, so cute haha. but in the end bought tix for G.I. JOE.

ate at Carls Jr for lunch+dinner where Abel joined us. haha we always go there when we go marina sq. it's always Carls or Subway (MRT STATION! o.o hahaha) eeeeek and i ate very fattening bacon cheeseburger and was so full after that. andy made us laugh a lot haha :D

G.I. JOE! abel had to wait ~two hours for us to finish the movie cos he watched that already. must have rotted la. haha. i find the movie not bad, considering the fact that i'm a girl and movies of these type usually don't appeal me to. friggin action-packed! everything just occurred in a flash and everything, so much so that i felt i got almost cross-eyed and we were sitting at the 4th row from the front x_X lol. but because the movie was so filled with action right from the beginning to the end, it was pretty mindless and everything's rather fake HAHA. the scenes were set at 10years into the future? wow. i wonder what nanotech will turn our world into...scary.

went to pool and played a game but din play properly cos was wearing a skirt. then me and cindy got so tempted to play the so many soft toy machines near the place...so we went there and tried our luck catching. GAHHH CAUGHT NO SOFT TOYS =.= no hello kitty no stitch no DOMO KUN~ lol. and i saw like someone managing to catch 2 at one go! oh mama.

okay! then went back and the guys finished their games. while we were planning to leave the place the soft toys machines caught us again. zhentao and andy tried to catch the toys and got so pekcek they didnt manage to catch any. after a couple in front of us tried umpteenth times to catch but failed, zhentao went for the last try and RAH! HE GOT SHERYL A DOMO-KUN! so cute lol. and the couple must have felt so angry hahah. dang, such a good money making machine lor.

bought macs, trained back. so tired by then.. home sweet home at 12am =)

no photos with the guys haha. been so long since i last went out with them, and i havent seen cindy,abel and andy for so long before yesterday! and they were supposed to be studying in Woodlands la. haha.

so sad i reckon next year we can't have an outing as such anymore...because all the guys will be involved in NDP, marching away! am i right, am i right, am i right!

no fireworks for me this year. going for dinner with family and then gathering at twins' house later (:

last fun night gathering with the peeps before we all charge full gear towards prelim.

tanoshinde kudasai ~ ! ^^

2009-08-03T22:47:00.005+08:00

RAH I'M DAMNED PISSED.
i read straits times today. and for one of the very few times they report on DBSK, it has to be on the news of their lawsuit against SM, NOT on their music. wth. MORE PISSED WITH THE TITLE OF THAT ARTICLE. shan't say it here but damn that sucks to the core! ST ought to read the korean news and be more updated HELLOOOO ~

today, official statements were made by the trio on this most recent issue and i got EVEN MORE PISSED WITH SME. freak dictators of their idols.
13years exclusive contract which forbids the distribution of revenue records. one sided schedule conducted by the agency. rejected artistes' requests to revise the contract details. everything seemed bad. but what's worse, to me, is this: the first contract (unrevised), only if they can sell a single album more than 500,000 copies, the members can receive 10,000 million won for the next album. However, if the sales is less that 500,000 copies, they won’t have even a single penny of revenue allocation. The deal later on when they became REAL FAMOUS: each member gets 0.4% to 1% of album sales.

WHAT KINDA HELL AGENCY IS THAT. to think of us fans rooting for sales by purchasing their items, yet they're only getting an insignificant part of the profits. and what is being paid off for all these: the guys' physical and mental well being- they hardly have 3-4hours of sleep a day.

on one hand i don't feel like putting in money into the pockets of the SM DICTATORS anymore, but on the other im thinking how little the guys would be getting if we don't support them...GAH.
now i get why SHINHWA and H.O.T left SM. smart of them to keep on recruiting new artists, train them, feed them, nurture them...sounds so nice. i think they're merely trying to find replacements for DBSK just like how they replaced DBSK for SHINHWA back then as their primary money making machine.

dang i super hate this. hell agency go and die.
i suppose it will be better if they go join Big Bang and 2PM.
but it won't be easy. SM is some scheming bastard.

now, it's trying to cover up by blaming the guys again, and making use of the fact that Yunho and Changmin are not involved in the lawsuit so they claimed that it has some connections with the trio running their own comestic company (which is NOT the case, the main reason for them filing the lawsuit is because of the fact that SME refused to listen to the pleas of their #1 idols and eventually they had to resort to legal means!)

GRRRR. ANGRY.

okay to lighten up the mood,

YUNHO UP AS EVISU'S MODEL! freakinggg hot leadersshi haha.

YUNHO YUNHO !! :D

HAHAHA campaign earlier this year.
i've grown sick of looking at Cassies speculate about the whole thing, and then they disagree with each other on this and that. STOP IT CAN. JUST STOP. stop all the speculations and disagreements, it's not just the right time here now to do so. and this is precisely how rumours start in the first place. now i've stopped following discussions on soompi, and just follow up with news updated and translated by more the rational international Cassies.

it's our turn to bring laughter back to them now. gonna be a hard period for them, i hope they'll continue to remain positive. sigh

ROOTING FOR JUNSU, YOOCHUN, JAEJOONG FOR A POSITIVE OUTCOME ~

that is, SM to revise their contract details!

Changmin and Yunho must have their own reasons for not filing the lawsuit, possibly because of them being tied down with their drama debuts, please STOP arrowing them for not playing a part in this. nobody knows what is going on for now.

lastly, I REALLY HATE THIS

tiredddd..

2009-08-02T19:43:00.016+08:00

chiong-ed library these two days. haha but didnt manage to do a lot of work.
tsk. nvm at least i finished what is required of me to finish ^^

***
photos long overdued from the birthday celeb last week! was supposed t be for sicheng too but he couldnt make it, and not a lot turned out either!

we purposely made bryan think that mel and sheryl wouldnt be going for the outing, lotsa rubbish trying to cover up for it im not good at lying la! &.& and then the jasmine@little india thingy was rather hilarious hahaha.

uh we went dhoby ghaut to play pool! i got so rusty that bryan said i deproved from the last time i played with him. ohwell. ive been anyhow always anyws! lol. and then played played, while twinsie mel and jas went to get the cake for bryan. they came! and we opened another table. bryan coached mel and the girls who were first timers on the pool table hehe.

aft that went out to a quiet area and sang birthday song for bryan! then we left to explore around and ended up eating TAU HUAY at some place...apparently that tawhuay stall is quite popular but i find it just okay. AND. the lady boss super fierce wth. so fierce for what! slap you ah. =__=

(captions below photos btw!)

bryan = not only a chemwhore. but camwhore. eh, supposed to be candid why are you staring into my cam!

bry and mel!

halo minghan i know your tongue's very big ~

spazzing over colourful balls.

spazzing over colourful balls no.2 lolol

nice posture LOL

okay how can we not camwhore right! (flash not allowed, got to make do with some editing)

cheeezxzxzxzxz! =)

with birthday boy who's smiling so happily (i wonder why.... *.*)

LOL xuewen why you took this.

photos with birthday boy! (bryan's face spam: skip if you cant tahan LOL)

xuewen's super ex lifeguard sunglass! ~$300 ZOMG.

what an angle! (minghan took this hahahha)

trying to come up with a keyboard expression for this face hmmm.... /-8} ... RAH forget it i can't. too epic lol

LOL

self-acclaimed by them as the world's coolest photo~!

alright minghan your photog skills suck big time ah. period.

?!?!

mel presenting birthday mochi! :D

bryan smiling so brightly hehe.

i dont know whatssup with the facial expression lol

holding minghan back before he sweeped away all the mochi! (mine got swept away eventually by him -__-! )

***

OKAY THIS IS EVEN MORE OVERDUED. like last last week?

hahaha. swezhentao's birthday! weifeng and sheryl organised it for him such that he didn't know we all would go down to celebrate his birthday for him. at first weifeng told him it was only going to be him and zt bbq-ing near wf's house. eh? im not very sure also la lol.

and so we met up and went down without him knowing. not long later the wf's clique joined us.

bbq-ed the night away, hair super smelly, played cards. and i think still left alot of food when we left.

OH. that night was hell cos i haven't finished my environment essay and i went out! tootzxzx at schoolwork seriously holding all of us back lol.

zt, sheryl and cake ~! sweet sabotage after that LOL

group photo (without cindy&kenneth who left just before we took it)

so overwhelmed with doubles that this photo can jolly well be split into two, like seriously! LOL

ah everyone was wearing black and white on that day except for andy neo! hehe.

***

weather has been bad lately.
sis and minghao both fell sick at this unsightly time, please take care !

NATIONAL DAY IS COMING. whee~

always keep the faith

2009-08-01T22:06:00.012+08:00

TVXQ disbanding?

HELL NO.

from what i know, what's official and known is merely the case of JaeChunSu filing for a disposition of one of their contract deals which seemed rather unreasonable. and it fuelled into 1000000000000 more reasons for them to disband. what is this...i left forum yesterday night and just when i went back to track, it jumped almost 30pages!

i'll support them no matter what. just leave sm if they're not happy. i feel that they deserve much more after knowing their ridiculous profit splits.
they WON'T disband. stop all the rumours zzz. it's not a case of H.O.T incident being replayed, please! ROARRRRR AT ALL YOU SKEPTICS

waiting eagerly for the guys' official statements. everything is sort of in a whirlpool of fire now. it has been crazy in the cyber world of dongbang fandom for the past 24hours. the power of the new media i guess, everything spreads so instantly and limitlessly that it gets scary.

meanwhile, i shall ignore all these and think of the so many events that are lined up for them. Yunho&Changmin making their drama debuts, Jaejoong&Yoochun with their new single, Junsu up for his mini album. A-nation. SM Concert. airing of Heaven's Postman.

we're all worried about jaechunsu's case with SM. but there's nothing else we can do expect to ignore all the groundless rumours. and wait for the guys' official statements. meanwhile, they're continuing with their activities so just keep everything positive! like Yoochun always said, "Always Keep The Faith".

this song can never be more appropriate to encourage everyone to stay positive. to me, a different meaning of the song has prevailed given this situation, although the song was made for the World Cup when Korea hosted it back then. i've always loved the grand feel of this song anyws!

meanwhile, listening to Mi Duh Yo and Don't Say Goodbye gives me a nostalgic feel...

A-NATION @ Kumamoto today and still ongoing. Junsu cut his hair and dyed it back black.
loving it damn hot hehe.

source: tohomobile; credits to: shooku

5 = 1 ; 5-1 = 0

DONG BANG FIGHTING~! ^^ 800000 and more are with you :)

don't bother about it

2009-07-31T22:55:00.006+08:00

my life has finally came to a point for me to realise that years and years of something isn't gonna be everything and neither is it going to be for eternal. relationships of any kind are so fragile in every way you can imagine it to be, no matter how strong rooted on the past. so i get it, im like non-existent at all.

pissed&heartbroken.
but i choose to think of sth else that never fail to cheer me up. bleh

not worth it.

笑って・笑って

2009-07-26T23:07:00.013+08:00

till now, i still cannot imagine how i'd handle things if i were you. to think of whatever you've gone through and is going through right now is simply heart wrenching. i know people are bound to experience this some day, so i'm not sure whether or not it's a blessing to me that i hadn't. yet when i think of someone close to me, still growing and learning from every lesson of life, having to go through all these... i feel a lot. it's really too much for you to bear at such a tender age. pull it through, alright. chuck aside that part of your memory, you've got other priorities to attend to..so many opportunities awaiting you. smile :)

***

this week's gp essay is on the topic of technology. spent a good few hours writing it cos there seemed to be a potential barrier of 10000000V in the brain that i couldn't leap over. zzz waste my time, could have spent that extra few hours doing more things!

technology is increasingly bringing out the worst in people. discuss.

i say: why question so much about what's already given? i say somemore: why are we even answering these questions when in the first place, they don't have an answer to it? all the more...why are we, the pathetic JC students, answering the questions from people we don't even know and who merely recognizes us as numbers? (to think of respect for fellow human beings. tsk..freaking being treated like prisoners)

~~tmr's school and i reckon it's gonna stretch till evening for the chem makeup tut T.T~~ [edited 27/07: i didnt go to school today sheeeesh]

so sick of everything already.

yesterday was a mini outing ha! i played pool but i lost my already-very-limited skills back to the pool table. LOL. will update on it soon.

before i leave,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRYAN LIM BRRAAAN! (belated)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUCHEY LIM SICHENG! (in advance)

woah. both the LIMs are physics prodigies *.*

if only they can spare me a part of their grey matter used to do physics... heh.

dang. i want to make cheesecake agn but i've got no time!

wait okay, i'll improve this time round hoho ^^

Life

2009-07-24T20:03:00.008+08:00

realised i haven't been talking about school lately, simply because there's almost nothing worth mentioning for the same old routine i go through everyday.. but mr ivan ang is getting hornier by the day. LOL okay maybe he's already horny by nature and it's really beginning to slowly seep out of him every gp lesson! i love his lessons and the interesting facts he provides us every lesson (which were just like a puny part of the VAST AND INFINITE pool of knowledge behind his head; if there's ever a real tree of knowledge, it has got to be implanted into ivan ang's brain HAHA)

and having to squeeze into trains every morning with absolute strangers really puts me off at times. as if this morning's rain wasnt bad enough, i was having a super bad gastric pain..and the train just had to be exceptionally packed! my mood wasnt even good to begin with because i've got a Quantum Physics test in the morning, plus Nikki was late so i had to go school alone. imagine how irked i really was when people just squeezed me into one corner as if i wasnt human and didnt need to occupy any space at all =__= and i really hate squeezing with those people because it's like...you know...RUBBING YOUR SKINS AGAINST STRANGERS? o.o some sweaty and flabby and smelly some more. eek!

i will get a car lisence. OR.. at least find someone who can drive me! ^8^

alright alright. putting aside complaints, if i'd look at going to school in an optimistic point of view, it will be so much better. um well, small lil things like seeing Pradeep dance to Britney's Womanizer, Jason's random squeals during lessons (LOL) and guessing tgt with twins what Jasmine would buy when going with Mel, who always buys choc milk, to the drink stall. haha. school life does instantaneously light up during those moments.

unfortunately, if you havent noticed, i emphasize on the word instantaneously.

sighs, if only time could turn back right...

***

i love flea markets! it can be quite refreshing to drop shopping at town and head to some fleas to find some valuable stuff..it's like digging gold lol. one man's trash is another man's treasure! hoho I LIKE ^^

why am i talking about flea markets? HAHA.

because...i was at one some day last week and i found this!

A-Nation 06 Best Hit Selection...as you can see, it's still wrapped and new. guess how much i got it for? HAHA. $10! even HMV doesn't sell this anymore...besides even if it does stock it, i reckon it will be nothing less than a $30- HMV's such a rip off!

and i got this because of DBSK's Rising Sun performance at 2006's A-Nation tour. which is still my fav. Rising Sun performance to date! it was so epic, cos leader Yunho-sshi was injured during that period and couldnt perform, but the rest of the members pulled it off so perfectly. Junsu and Jaejoong took over Yunho's rap, very refreshing. and CHANGMIN'S scream was pitch perfect splendid! (but i don't like his hair)

uh. now i can watch the performance HQ! woohoooo~! :D
not forgetting.. A-Nation live tour 2009 in Japan will kick start in August! so many wonderful artistes coming together for the tour, can't wait for updates on it.

BUT. SM TOWN LIVE 09 is gonna rock more wahahaha. tickets (for dont know what seats) were sold out in a mere 5 minutes! rocking or not. haha. TVXQ, SHINee, Super Junior, SNSD! grr...i wish i can go. it's gonna be so fun.

next, THIS:

obviously i purposely took this against my files to show how hardworking i am LOL
All About Dong Bang Shin Ki 3 Preview Storybook; Please Be Mine. yes..it's in my possession now. me and yuewen were so excited about this! haha. what's best is that it contains english translation for the korean and japanese text- SM is recognising more international fans! whee!

was expecting hard cover. but nvm. i like the touch of the pages..so nice heh.

well, my favourite remains those scenery shots. some were very breathtaking. nice!

ohman su in charasmatic white white whito.
xD ~ Junsu-biased !

YunJaeYooSuMin...why so gorgeous?

***
okay! done spazzing.

=) sugar still tastes as sweet as before..

keep it safe

2009-07-17T10:02:00.005+08:00

i discovered MASA! came across his kpop hit remix 2009 some time ago but didnt dwell into his works. was surfing the legendary Youtube yesterday and damn, his remixes are epic! he blends together music i've never thought would go well together and produces some gorgeous mix. he can just go produce a remix album on his own :D

apart from the 2 Kpop hits remixes (08 and 09 ver.) on my playlist which are soo worth listening esp if you're an avid kpop fan, check out his other works including those which mixes Western and Asian music together! super brilliant. remix of DBSK's doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou and Beyonce's Halo produces...Why Did I Fall In Love With Your Halo? (lol at the title) it actually gives a more grand feeling to the original doushite song, and i kinda like it although it deviates from the feeling the already splendid original song gives me.

and! Anyband's Talk,Play,Love with Britney's Gimme More. and it forms Gimme TPL (still lol at the title)

omigosh just blind me? i can't stand watching Junsu and Britney in the same music video esp. with what Britney is wearing! lol. surprisingly, the 2 songs actually go so well together! Masa is a genius, he made Britney's song less bitchy and more classy. nice.

super cool. his other mixes easily found on youtube!
website: http://www.masamixes.com/

***

CLASS PHOTOS !

lazy to upload on photobucket so click to enlarge :D
i scanned in the photos cos of SOMEONE by the surname of elle ai em who keeps on exploiting me hahaha. anyways! this year's class photos are so much nicer than last year's, but andrea and sheryl were not with us that day sad! =.*

and so i got my result slips back today. this can be the worst set of results ive ever gotten..never in my whole life i've got a grade being underlined! T.T

it's over, and im not gonna let it hold me back anymore. some of the guys did quite well and im happy for them (: as for me, i suppose it's really not enough hard work being put in.

hard work pays off, i'll like to believe in this.
がんばってください ! ^^

to forgive or forget?

2009-07-12T18:50:00.011+08:00

my GP essay qns! apply it to international relations today. it's like kuku difficult..if i spot this among the 12essay options i wouldnt even look at it la. now mr.ang asked us to do. no choice. gg! i spent half of the day doing this zomg.

just now! minghao taught me and twinsie some concepts on quantum physics at library. loo ry and dk were there too! that loo ry so long never see him already i still feel like calling him chairman loo hahaha. minghao is such a pro as always! SO DO I SEE A GLIMPSE OF HOPE IN MY PHYSICS....hmmm. okay our notes suck alright. big time.
LOL at minghaoTHEPRO and his explanations. very funny but easy to understand, a lot of question marks in my head are cleared now. thanks! (:

sou desu ne..& the guys went town without us lo !

=P haha no la wasnt intending to go anws need to do essay! o__O

***
i love this junsu fanboy! this was at omotesando. he loves xiah! so cute right, i want my son to be like that too HAHA

speaking of fandom, i wish i can get my hands on Bonjour Paris photobook, but it's out of print already so sad. i miss Junsu's peacock and Jaejoong's blonde hair. Changmin is looking fine now frankly speaking i dont like his hair last time! LOL. say hello to them:

su looking good in specs!
HELLO PROM KINGS! ♥ HAHA
***
im really very worried about my studies albeit ppl telling me it's only midyears...aj papers are difficult...i'll do fine at during a'levels. like how to not be worried?! we jc students all know that the alevels cert is very very important, and that competition is tight.

so im worried. i really am..
i feel very bad now because im not only afraid of letting myself down, im afraid of letting others down too.

despite this, im really touched by all the encouragements im getting.
sweeet encouragements from ppl who may not exactly feel what im going through but understand, and ppl who are in the same phase as me.
im very grateful! ^^ arigatai desu ne. thankkkyou.

all the dreams and hopes made of your eyes.
明日もきっと晴れる　そのままの君でいて..

word of the day is yasashii !

there's always a reason for me to keep going, and i will. =)

1 + 1 = 0

2009-07-10T23:41:00.009+08:00

HAPPY 13TH BIRTHDAY, BRO JAYDEE! (:

bro is growing up. voice breaking..sounds so awful. LOL.
getting more matured...not as untactful as the past. and that's good.
BUT! still indulged in gaming, which is BAD.

gosh i sound like a mom haha.

i'll be looking forward to the day when he's capable of protecting me da big sister =)

***

Yoochun has a new haircut, finally no more curly chun!

oh my heart is in BEIJING now ^ ^

Moon Hee Jun is making a comebackwith his new mini album Last Cry.

and his new song... T.T so depressing. it's super nice yums with the slow rock tempo, but an already depressed person like me shouldnt listen to it.

tomorrow!
....i cant join the girls to go bishan j8 tomorrow =(
feeling very guilty now cos it's so last minute.. GOMEN NE!!

midyr results are bad by far. don't ask me.
it's like ISLS. ISLS. IFLS now. (if you can ever break this code) x__X

BANG THE WALL.
i should just get married and stop schooling now.

***

ureshii desu ka...?
iie desu. taihen tsukarete imasu...

あの melody and harmony and love

2009-07-05T23:14:00.017+08:00

yesterday! went out with yuewen and twinsie. cindy couldnt join us... (-o-) but nvm! there's another ~~cats,mouse,owner~~ girls' gathering next sat i guess for that bof thing HAHA. =)

we went to thomson rd to eat prata at prata house although yw ate prata for breakfast already LOL. my egg prata was quite nice. then we endured the scorching heat and walked to icekimo(brrr...) for some ice cream treat, only to reach there having all the seats filled up O.O

BUT! heaven was kind to us. or we were just too irresistably nice that somebody left soon after we bought our ice creams and we got to sit inside ^^ if not have to eat ice cream with the hot sun burning our skins off zomg so miserable.

weird photos taken by .... ? LOL

haha very cute!
and so we left. took some bus and ended up at vivo city LOL. quite ridiculous when we initially said we didnt want to go town area. RAAAAWR. went walking around to look for things but in the end i only bought home Starburst from Candy Empire dots. LOL. anyways! i went to yuewen's house for some late dinner after much ~~persuasion~~ consideration...lol. me ate vege pizza she ate honey chicky. and we both had her mom's bak kut teh which was quite nice. then watched tv spazzing about some variety programme introducing jap food. and then watch BOF! left home at 11pm tada~

***

i still can't believe after 2months or so, THSK 4TH LIVE TOUR ended with 2wonderful days of Tokyo Dome! i've been tracking updates real time when im at home...which were like CRAZY. toho staff report at their official site can update like thrice every hour! LOL. it felt so much like i was there with them with all the updates from fans and from them...but blah. what beats the real experience of REALLY watching them live? hahaha.

the venue was man real impressive. 50,000 cassiopeias packing the entire venue. the pearl red ocean was amazing...from photos alone they were already beautiful, i cant imagine myself being there at the venue witnessing it. THSK must have felt a lot seeing them from the stage.

(credits: dnbn + db official thread @ soompi + SYC)
still, what was unexpected was the Blue project. all of them switched to blue glowsticks during Stand By U. and it was so breathtaking! Bigeast is great. so pretty omg.

(credits: toho staff report @ toho-jp)
dome's concerts on both days were different from others they had at other places. which was kinda good BUT HOW CAN THEY TAKE AWAY BEAUTIFUL YOU? ohman after seeing all the fancams of the concerts at other venues, i was actually looking forward to hearing Junsu's awesome adlib at the song's ending when the dome dvd comes out... T.T
BUT THEN. there's Junsu's solo Xiahtic and Yunho's Checkmate japanese version! Changmin with Wild Soul too. all smoking hot, should be able to make up for my Beautiful You ^^

as much as i was surprised with the above solo performances, i was pretty much shocked (in a good way) at another Jaejoong-Yoochun collaboration in Colors ~Melody and Harmony~ ! the song is sooooo good that the first time i hear it from one of the first uploaded lousy quality fan recorded audio, i already liked the melody.

after Kiss Shita Mama Sayonara, another JaeChun duo composition! soulmates are so impressive :D absolutely love their harmonization!
AND. the song will be used as the theme song for HELLO KITY 35th Anniversary's campaign. hello kitty omg! i like HAHA.

For someone’s sake
we are here.
Although we can only achieve small things,
even just for 1 second,
we still want to stop all the tears in this world
and turn them all into smiles.

Keep loving, and keep walking,
we've been believing that we will be able to
convey these overflowing feelings.
Even before we were born,
we knew that we would meet,
and that we would be searching for our dreams together.
(lyrics translation: linhkawaii@lj )
so 4th live tour is over but they're not resting!
it's 3rd Asia Tour Mirotic at Beijing next week. and A Nation Live Tour (which BoA is also attending!!) is also coming up. LOL WTKUKU LIKE MONEY MAKING MACHINE LIDAT LA. SM, AVEX PLEASE GIVE THEM SOME REST! -__-

nonetheless, omedetou gozaimasu! congrats to them for having their dream come true! i heard they all teared T.T sobsobs i knew it! yoochunnie will cry first! HAHA.

(credits: fin123@soompi)
DONG BANG HWAITING! ^^

i cant wait for my SBU single and AADBSK3 preview storybk to come!

LASTLY, I WANT TO MAKE A SHOCKING STATEMENT.......

LIFE ROCKS SO MUCH NOW,
CAN I JUST DON'T SCHOOL ANYMORE? lawl

dashed

2009-07-04T11:44:00.007+08:00

hello! so midyear common tests are over. looking back at my past 5 days of the week, im surprised i've actually survived. it was the most horrible week ever. well, i survived with more maggots growing on my face and black ink plastered under my eyes that is. =.=

NVM! since it's over and there's nothing else to do about it except to groan and cry when i get back my results and and and.......BLAH! i feel so demoralised T.T damnit..i just realised i have no confidence in doing well for any of my papers. i can only say PHYSICS was my worst. as expected. you know, it really sucks to have studied yet when you get the paper you just dont seem to apply whatever you know. sucks right! zzz. and then physics and econs were on the same day what the kuku was that. now that im thinking about which paper i've the most confidence for, i can't think of any. it seems like im merely hanging there in the middle, and i've no forte in any of the subjects im taking! maybe that explains my lack of vision for the future. dang. i feel like im such a failure dots

WHATEVER!

im going to slack my whole wkend away :D
woooohooooo yeah man.

i find it so retarded that the government kept on telling us not to go overseas because it's DANGEROUS. helllooooo? SG has got like almost 1000cases now and if we go other countries we're the ones posing as threats to them la. SINGAPORE IS DANGEROUS. period. we should all be quarantined here like for nuts sake. if not it will be a good idea to quarantine ourselves at some other country! escape this sucky little land infested with the freaking virus! hoho :P

!!!!!!! IM SO EXCITED NOW.
because the long awaited TOKYO DOME SHOWDOWN for THSK 4TH LIVE TOUR is on today and tomorrow! the banner there ---> is the winner of the concert banner design for the official forum :D
man im so proud of them cos they're the first non-Jap artists to perform in dome!
its capacity is like 50,000 people o.o

here is the exterior of Dome real time. fans are already queuing up for official goods since morning when concert only kicks start in the evening! lucky fans who get to go...RAWR.

(credit: DB official thread @ soompi)
i heard the audience experience for tokyo dome isnt gonna very good cos the arena is too big. but it's the dream of every artist who's active in Japan to perform in dome i suppose. DBSK did perform in their own concerts with capacities of more than 60,000 people in Korea before. but whenthey went to Japan, they had to start from scratch again..i can never ever forget their debut depression period. 4 tough years after their debut in Japan, THEIR DREAM CAME TRUE. i know it sounds cliche, but really no words can express how happy i am for them, i believe this what every tvxq fan is feeling right now. they've come very far...THEY WILL DO GREAT TODAY :D

(credit to dbsknights: tokyo dome press conf.)

will be looking forward to accounts and reports on their concert later at night when i get back home =)
♥ TOHO, TOHO, TOHOSHINKI FIGHTO!
and since i cant make it to dome, i shall wait patiently for the release of their dome concert dvd in september :D
speaking of this im so gonna spend a BOMB on fandom man.
the upcoming PLEASE BE MINE photobook (300pages of tvxq!) costs $45 and then there's 9hours of DBSK for ALL ABOUT DBSK SEASON 3 (!!!!)
coming up is their new single in August. and also the DVD release of their Mirotic concert.
seriously O.O

i hope daddy gets to go korea soon then i can ask him buy me AADBSK3. korean version with eng subs. cheaper some more! the jap version costs $150 for preorder online OMIGOSHHHH

and! Stand By U single ranked #2 on Oricon Chart daily and sold over 100000copies in 2days!
they lost to Arashi's Everything, so i don't really mind because Arashi kinda rules Japan right now...and i like Arashi too! lol.
but SBU is really such a pity cos it's a good single and really deserve #1 placing.
i ordered mine but it's korean version so sales wont be reflect on the Oricon charts =.=
HA korean versions are cheaper what...i need to talk some economical sense to myself.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
i kinda don't dare to go to town now because im KIASEE. lol.
yaya say im being paranoid or whatever i dont careeeeee

because...

IM GOING ON A VIDEO MARATHON THIS ENTIRE LONG WEEKEND WOOHOOOOO.
the video icons on my desktop have been screaming their icons off for me to double click them and open them into windows media player lol.

GOSH IT FEELS SO GOOD.

ROAR

2009-06-25T22:16:00.010+08:00

edit: our worldwide pop sensation MJ passed away at the age of 50 o.o sucha tragic end to his life considering that he was preparing for a comeback after years and years of scandals. although he and his avant garde behaviours freaked me out, it cannot be denied that he's a legend in the world of pop music and dance for the wave he created. so yeah...it's a loss.

*

MS KAT CALLED ME ASKING WHETHER I'M FIT AND HEALTHY LOL.
how i wish i can say nooooo I JUST CAME BACK FROM USA/ENGLAND/NIHON WHICH IS FREAKING INFESTED WITH H1N1 VIRUS! =.= dots. and then she was like...next week midyr cts okay. if not feeling well take mc and stay at home!
BANG.

since increasingly so many people are being infected...
WHY ARENT HOLS BEING EXTENDED?!?! grrr.

anyways,
i cant believe SYC team went to Junsu's CreBeau Belle and Misarang Pizza and met su papa and mama and took photos with them! they went to Yoochun's Timeout Gelato and met chun mama also! i believe Jaejoong's Crebeau Jeff would be next.
got pictures some more wahlao envious to the max!
YUEWEN ~~KIM~~ LET'S GO ON A TRIP TO KOREA SOME DAY :D

FT ISLAND CAME TO SG TODAY!
ooo but they dont give me that "wholesome" kinda feel anymore cos no more Oh Won Bin!
why leave....doushite...
NVM! not DBSK anyways! HAHA.
wonder how many fans were there at the airport..would have gone to join in the hype if it's DBSK or BoA! waha. i already missed BoA when she came for VMA 2004 =(

i watched TBS's broadcast of TOKYO FRIEND PARK 2 just now!

(credit as tagged)
i know this wasnt meant to be the highlight of the variety show but....BUT...
THSK DID THE ACAPELLA VER. OF STAND BY U ! freaking loved <3 hehe
everything looked so fun i wanna play too! it was like instantly all of them turned into kids!
ohman they recorded this when Junsu's leg was still recovering so he couldnt play the WALL CRASH game which his heart must be itching for! haha but he played the rest thou ^^ and Jaejoong went like "aho" (which is even offensive than using "baka") when Junsu missed that shot for them to win so meeeeean! HAHA. then YunJae were going lovey dovey again. Junsu, being increasingly known for his oyagi gags, were asked to do them by the old hosts. Changmin looked rather tired however but he was having so much fun! and i havent seen Yoochun jumping around in a very very long time. love the hosts too they were so clumsy and funny singing along to "dou....shite.."
HAHA sucha fun episode ^^

gosh i cant wait for the subbed version of this. but i cant stalk youtube now..it can just go burn itself cos it keeps on banning vids LOL. but i gotta love international cassies man they just have the ways :D

and the guys are heading off to BANGKOK tmr for Mirotic 3rd Asia Tour 2009!
gaahhhhh my 2nd motherland! thai fans are so lucky but i doubt any of my relatives will be going heh. if not can ask them to help me get concert goods i so want that mirotic concert tee ahhh!
mama and daddy should just migrate our whole family to thailand after giving birth to us...like seriously. LOL

TSC 4TH LIVE TOUR FINAL @ TOKYO DOME IN A WEEK ZOMG CANT WAIT!
they've worked so hard so hard for it...have a feeling that it's gonna have that Budoukan feel =)

so....now! back to work!

SORRY FOR BEING SO LOUD IN THIS POST COS....

PHYSICS IS SO DIFFICULT JUST KILL ME OR TELL ME WHY AM I SO DUMB!
sighs.

okay.....2012 isnt gonna come so soon so i shall now calm down and tell myself that i have, however, every reason in this world that everyone has to be happy. i really do =)

warning: GIRAFFE'S NECK POST!

2009-06-20T18:53:00.027+08:00

let this post be long :D

firstly, i received an email from mira a few days ago and was appalled! here it goes:

Take note...don't always sleep late!!

Good rest and sound sleep is very
Important... if u don't sleep well,
The toxic in your body will accumulate..
Affecting your health and your mood...

The main causes of liver damage are:
1. Sleeping too late and waking up too late are the main cause.
2. Not urinating in the morning.
3. Too much eating.
4. Skipping breakfast.
5. Consuming too much medication.
6. Consuming too much preservatives, additives, food coloring, and artificial sweetener.
7. Consuming unhealthy cooking oil. As much as possible reduce cooking oil use when frying, which includes even the best cooking oils like olive oil. Do not consume fried foods when you are tired, except if the body is very fit.
8. Consuming overly done foods also add to the burden of liver. Veggies should be eaten raw or cooked 3-5 parts. Fried veggies should be finished in one sitting, do not store.

We just have to adopt a good daily lifestyle and eating habits. Maintaining good eating habits and time condition are very important for our body to absorb and get rid of unnecessary chemicals according to 'schedule.'

Because: Evening at 9 - 11pm : is the time for eliminating unnecessary/ toxic chemicals (de-toxification) from the antibody system (lymph nodes). This time duration should be spent by relaxing or listening to music. If during this time a housewife is still in an unrelaxed state such as washing the dishes or monitoring children doing their homework, this will have a negative impact on her health.

Evening at 11pm - 1am : The de-toxification process in the liver, and ideally should be done in a deep sleep state. Early morning 1 - 3am : de-toxification process in the gall, also ideally done in a deep sleep state.

Early morning 3 - 5am : de-toxification in the lungs. Therefore there will sometimes be a severe cough for cough sufferers during this time. Since the de-toxification process had reached the respiratory tract, there is no need to take cough medicine so as not to interfere with toxin removal process.
Morning 5 - 7am : de-toxification in the colon, you should empty your bowel.

Morning 7 - 9am : Absorption of nutrients in the small intestine, you should be having breakfast at this time. Breakfast should be earlier, before 6:30am, for those who are sick. Breakfast before 7:30am is very beneficial to those wanting to stay fit. Those who always skip breakfast, they should change their habits, and it is still better to eat breakfast late until 9 -10am rather than no meal at all. Sleeping so late and waking up too late will disrupt the process of removing unnecessary chemicals. Aside from that, midnight to 4am is the time when the bone marrow produces blood.

Therefore, have a good sleep and don't sleep late.

omg...so whatever minghao said was true alrite. HA just freaking read the whole chunk of it! i think it's a good reminder for us to take good care of our bodies because IT'S SO EASY TO DIE. oh freak.

zzz and i dare to say that throughout the june hols ive never slept earlier than 12am before. nono im not busy mugging but...ya. does it explain why ive finished watching VOICE and KAMI NO SHIZUKU and tons tons tons of DBSK and BoA DVDs over the holidays? :O
cindy, im so gonna die earlier than you DONT SAD OKAY =(.. lol.

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love this song. listen...

Lion Heart

"If someday I have a child
I'll love him second best in all the world and tell him
Someday you'll meet your special someone
Just like I met your mother "

"Your past that has been filled
With the lies of false lovers
I'll make up for everything,
for everything you've lost"

"To protect you, that's why I was born
You may not believe it, but I'll always stay by your side
Watching your sleeping face, in my chest beats a lion heart"
Lion Heart was like my sec1 SMAP song? but i just only happened to like the melody of it back then...and it died in my playlist after a while. T-MAX did a korean version of it too but i thought SMAP was better. then yrs later, Tohoshinki sang LION HEART. their version of this made me appreciate the lyrics and meaning of the song even more, and it got revived on my playlist agn. this time, TVXQ's version. why? i dont mean anything bad about SMAP, they're awesome. in fact, they're like the legend in Japan's history of boybands and of courseeee, there's Takuya Kimura (oh gatsby!) HAHA....but their version of it was more of like puppy love kinda thing..and their way of singing didnt capture me much. so ya it died after a while although the song is beautiful. toho's version was more matured (although apparently they're younger :P) and allowed me to better look into depth the meaning of the song. i like i like i like! saikou da~!

non fans, anti fans, or whatever should all watch this performance because the song is so nice and was performed so beautifully! that is of course unless ummm...YOU HATE LOVE SONGS.
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nyways, they performed this on 僕らの音樂 Our Music somewhere in March. Junsuuuuu sounded like an angel (as always! *flies to suuu heaven*) and Jaejoong too! but nothing beats them when they all sing tgt...even Yunho sang so nicely! their voices just blend so nicely tgt OH. so glad they got to do this and also went on SMAPxSMAP...SMAP you know! Johnny's Entertainment! totally owns over the tv stations like monopoly like that and certainly is rather reserved on letting a foreign group into their shows, ohwell those days were the past....DBSK is rocking in nihon now, getting onto Music Japan (music show with most viewers and most imptly, JE-dominant) and stuff :D

then woah! somebody told me that this will be a perfect wedding song. hehe
come to think of it, SMAP did this on Takuya Kimura's wedding! so sweet right.
i'd want this as my perfect wed song tooooo =) toho's ver. haha.

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eh? okay i think my blog is turning more of like a song review blog hahaha.
okayyyy....so some short updates on MY LIFE. MY ROCKING LIFE. =.=

well, past few days i was lazy to go lib although i went...and ive spent alot of days at home sweet home. do what? study??? o.o the thing is this, often when one stays at home, he/she will think that they have a lot of time...so they take things easy, in their own pace, ohhh so slowly...slowly...like tortoise......and BANG! SLEEP TIME! so half of the day was spent on nothing constructive! sad to say that im like this. how good can this get? goshh.

and some callus thingy grew on my left feet cos i wore too much of heels. so pain! and despite this, i still went to play squash and walk walk. im walking like a crippled now.

just now, i finally attended ASD mtg! my 1st gakkai mtg in dont know how many mths..cos alot of events have been cut off due to the h1n1 virus. kinda happy and glad. i must keep the faith =)

bought a red cardigan, many slippers and accessories, many shirts.
made new specs too. degree deepened again sian to the max.
felt good spending MONEY :D

rushed home just now to catch toho on MUSIC FAIR on FUJI TV! technology rocks man cos i get to watch Japanese television LIVE here for free! and they are popular channels like FujiTV, Nihon TV, TV Asahi, TBS omggggg. wahahhahahs. see:

and this was the 1st live perf (other than on their concert) for Stand By U. they sang My Destiny (havent hear them perform this for so long!) and Share The World and Sky too. nice =) and Girl Next Door was also there! vid quality sucks though and they spoke so fast i could only barely make out what they were saying..but the talk was quite funny LOL. one point they kept on talking abt Jaejoong's cooking and at the end Junsu did that oyaji gag lol! such dorks! nvm the qlty..it's live tv! rocks right! i couldnt find NHK channel though...and other korean channels. but i manage to find taiwan's TVB8 for updated idol dramas too just so coooool lol. gonna catch them on TBS Channel's Tokyo Friendly Park next wk woohooo.

oh and i find it quite weird that my parents (yeahh even dad) are hooked onto this korean show WHO ARE YOU. haha interesting...wanna join them too but better dont else it gets addictive :P

alright that aside, im not gonna touch much of my com anymore cos i feel so doomed now that the 3rd week of june hols is ending. school reopens. midyr exam..i've never felt so unprepared before. feeling very insecure now.

LASTLY, (i promise it's the last)

HAPPY FATHERS' DAY!

reason why my daddy is my daddy:

left: daddy's idol, right: my idol....the lines on the faces tell it all =p LOL
nvm i love daddy more as he gets older! every man gets more charismatic as he ages...woo. but poor daddy got to work tmr although it's a sunday and it's fathers' day! awwwww so dont think will get to celebrate tomorrow.

BUT......IM GONNA COOK DINNER FOR HIM TOMORROW! :D

okay! i woke up so early today and slept so late last night so gonna take a nap now.
wake up later to do math yo gambatte kudasai~! (i can never say this with accurate korean pronunciation)

p.s. get my title? i was just trying to be lame cos this post is long..so giraffe neck post... OOOOOOO *crows flying around* HAHA. okay whatever anyways im close to being physically lame already cos i really cant walk properly now my leg feets hurts from the callus!

ah! whatever! here's my giraffe! :D

hahha banging head onto cindy's pencil case. dear ryan, im so sorry for making you so stressed up along with me. i promise to bathe you soon and make you squeaky clean! ryan replies "wah! such a good owner! loveya muacks!"

ohman im a good owner! cindy,yuewen,sheryl,serene cannot take me for granted! :D LOL

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2009-06-14T21:10:00.004+08:00

Mai Kuraki's new single "Beautiful":

not a big fan, but i appreciate her as an artiste and i think she's one of the most natural singers out there. i like this song! kept on hearing it played on TBS channel yesterday. it's quite different from her last album. i like the feel of this song, especially after days of plugging in GLAY'S I Am XXX and YUI's Again and Green Day, a few of my recent fav....hahaha. works together along with DBSK's Stand By U with its mid melody. nice =) okay whatever la. ohoh and she looks so pretty in the PV! love her smile so pretty. hmmm this song is rather self explanatory..the title itself. lol. no wonder it's used in one of Kose's commercial. and she's very pretty in the CM too. =)

DEPRIVED IS THE WORD

2009-06-11T20:06:00.011+08:00

hello i want to rant because it's freaking GSS GREAT SINGAPORE SALES MIDYEAR SALES SUMMER SALES whatever you call it and i havent really had the chance to really go and shop it out o.o i mean although the things being put on sale are really....ugly, it can be fun just walking around malls hoping to fish out some good stuff among the ugly goods.

im a woman and every Singaporean woman would have gone to town to shop their hearts out already and and and what about meeeeeeeeeeeeeee. i really want i really need i really want i really need TO SHOP.

and if im in Japan right now i would have already seen these with my real eyes... =(
toho is at Osaka now!! arghhhs FREAKING SWINE SUCKS TTMAX

okay.....cool down. (just nice my now playing song just changed to Stephanie's Changin' haha)

oh btw. uknow yunho looks so good in polo tee! (and on a bicycle)
found a pic from his (dunno what) endorsement:
so smart and charismatic right! hahaha like totally cant resist polo tees on guy! (but i dont rmb seeing photos of junsu wearing polo tees LOL he loves tanks :P) i think every guy should own lotsa lotsa nice polo tees because they'll look so smart and manly and good in it no matter what they wear it with. polo tees banzai~!the smartest casual wear ever designed. heh.

OK SO WHAT....IM NOT A GUY! o.o

hahahahahaha whatever la even if the streets are all selling polo tees now i also wanna go out and have a look because staying at home is so boring. wait. going out but not going out to play and shop but study is also boring.

okay im really not talking sense now already.

fine. i stop.

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okay but im not dead yet.
=.=

even more =.= bryan just called and physiccccs me.
he finds HCI prelim paper difficult! shit i dont think i can even start then.

okay ppl.
PERSEVERE.
JIAYOU ~ (￣▽￣)ノ

p.s. i feel like watching One Piece lol

pissed with the North

2009-06-09T18:27:00.004+08:00

the North, i dont mean Singapore's Yishun the puny insignificant dust on the world map but DPRK, the Democratic People's Republic of Korea. (to think it's the people's republic...what nonesense)

i dont think i have to list out one by one whatever provocative crap they've done (i cant rmb anyways xD) kim jong il and his government is just damn weird la. test-fired so many missiles dont know for what. pollute air scare people until they no hair waste resources then its people got no food. WHAT THE HELL? missiles missiles, nuclear tests, BOOOOOMB. wow. now i just read a news of N.Korea sentencing 2 U.S. journalists to 12years of labour camp?! i havent even hear this word for very long since Ms Ong LH's history lessons on STALIN. and the supposedly "grave crime" that the journalists committed wasnt even specified...they claimed that they should REFORM THROUGH LABOUR. seriously what the freak la. it's the 21st century and labour camps are not the way to go, baby.

and i still cannot accept the fact that North still bans karaoke cos apparently they carry the agenda of attempting to destroy the Mighty Il's regime. hellooooo...no music? cannot sing? HAHAA i guess ajcians gotta be grateful for getting to sing non mihi solum every Wednesday morning. bleh

there ~~are~~ were some attempts on the side of n.korea to bridge ties with the South through music (see i said KIM ~~not Junsu~~ is weird)
this! ...SHINHWA PERFORMED IN NORTH KOREA (wtkk?)

serious, it's SHINHWA. i guess only government personnels got to watch them performed while the rest of the people suffered elsewhere. i got a shock cos THE AUDIENCE WERE LIKE GHOSTS! roar. their reactions were so painful to watch zomg! i bet all of them were like thinking SHINHWA was some socially undesirable crap in their society and their eyes probably hurt from watching them. and even the ladies...no reaction from them. HELLO? IT'S SHINHWA WHO'S HOT POPULAR IN ASIA CAN! and the song they performed was one of my fav. songs from them (in MVP'S Valentine)...if they performed elsewhere, even if it wasnt South Korea, ppl would be cheering and screaming their heads off! i think they must be damn freaked out throughout the performance lo and feeling so downright uneasy. even reactions from the crowds watching getais are no match for that. ha. really wth la.
check out 3:10. the expression. damn ownage =.=

"This is so weird. South Korea send this boy band over there. North Korea gonna send nuclear back 2 the South. lol " i LOL-ed at this comment so hilarious hahaha

that was but one of the best of the North that i can find (at least there was an attempt to bridge)...but what is truly going on in there, i guess everybody knows

poor thing =/
sighs. South Korea is such a great place...i wouldnt say the same for the other side

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i love the okonomiyaki sold at some secluded place in Bugis and myyyyy blueberry cheesecake! =) okay i suck at macro shots and editing it really does look nice in reality! and tastes good too (i hope). trust me. heh

peace yo. i so wanna buy a nintendo wii so funfun~~raymond~~funfun!

okay im so dead. 1st week of the hols is gone. and ive got interact day tmr and an econs timed pract?
arghs what kind of life is this.

drag me to hell.
(o.o the movie was gross and super loud and scary but retarded at the same time! i dont know why we always got to watch stupid movies hahaha)

so irritating. im dead already. brain dying...died...dead.

it's 12am already, really

2009-06-03T11:54:00.024+08:00

HAPPY 23RD BIRTHDAY,MICKY PARK YOOCHUN!

HA. yoochun and his SMILE. i love his adlibs in Love In The Ice and Bolero just AWESOME i tell you. i love how he's the most sentimental in the group despite looking very tough outside- forever cannot forget how he just broke down and cried while singing Proud at the last stage of their 2nd live tour at Budoukan, then Junsu cried as well. and also when they received the awards at MFMK...awww. i love his style(totally yoochun style!), his confidence, his smile, his charisma, his role as a low baritone, his deep voice, him on the piano, his talent for composing which came up with two of my fav sentimentals Kiss Shita Mama Sayonara and Fox Rain, his love for his dog, his love for his mom (timeout gelato!), and....his love for Junsu! (LOLOL yoosu loves)

im not early lo. it says 1154pm on 3rd June here but it's already way past 12am 4th June in Japan and Korea time already (wherever he is). really...hontou ne! see, im really not early. heh.

yoochun ah, must take good care of junsu okay dont mislead him! LOL KIDDING. i dont want chunnie fans to come kill me and i'll live to see no tomorrow (eh might not be a bad thing since i dont have to study anymore hahaha.... *slaps myself* o.o)

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watched DANCE,SUBARU with ~~tom and jerry~~ yuewen and cindy on monday!
woohoooo. i like the movie, aside the fact that it starred DBSK for less than a minute (!!!!!!!! i couldnt contain my excitement for that few secs but i didnt scream ok)...HAHA. i felt the storyline was good la. so touching..sobs. actually there wasnt much of dancing involved in the movie, they just cut off the dances here and there..which explains why maybe jeryl said it was boring. that small boy Kazuma very cute :D
was expecting DBSK to sing Bolero at the starred appearance but they performed The Way U Are! quite shocked actually cos the song was so long ago.
SM Entertainment and Avex just rock la in being the producers of this movie cos BoA's Eat You Up was starred in the movie too! rocking yeahhh. lol.

a few days ago my TVXQ Vol.3 Repackage Version (Balloons; Music Video) arrived! i like the packaging. comes with cards too so cute. very unique and pretty...see:
so unlike normal packaging right! coool i love it so much haha. was deciding between this, the 'O' version and the repackaged Balloons version with the Banjun Theatre drama (my fav series of drama from them to date)...all i couldnt find in sg so lousy t.t if ive got the money i sure order all la T.T haha but settled for this eventually since ive already watched the drama..and this album is out of print at yesasia already! (see: http://www.yesasia.com/global/dong-bang-shin-ki-vol-3-repackage-version-cd-dvd-music-video/1004557560-0-0-0-en/info.html ) how lucky LOL. definitely a worth of money!

HAPPY :D i cant wait for the release of the 3rd Asia Tour Mirotic 2009 DVD! the rock version of HUG just rules man, ive never seen such a high performance for HUG before omg! really hope they put in the solos in the DVD, they super cut short like almost half of the concert (2hrs plus of concert became 1hr plus) for the broadcast of it on the jap TBS channel =.= i want my xiahtic! wahahaha.

sighs. this holiday is gonna suck big time, seriously. i dont have to wait till september to know how truly sucky a holiday can be...it's 3days into holidays and already it's horrible. what to do. no choice. cannot help it. must do it. must burn. must burn. must burn. WHACK AHHHHH

hais..i wanna watch alot alot alot of movies!
night in the museum, monsters vs aliens, ghost of girlfriends past...some hell horror show which already made me jump just seeing the trailer. and so many more. i still haven watch star wars yet zzz! haiyo. what kind of suck holiday is this =.=

okay im going to sleep now.
but before that need to do some situps for i had a very sinful dinner at BOTAK JONES just now LOL. yumyum but when i think of the oil and fats....errrr go do situps la HAHA.
been so long since ive eaten botak jones. and so long since the guys ate together with us, everybody's been very busy :)

oyasuminasai~

this holiday seems so different..

GAMBATTE MAS!

2009-05-31T23:36:00.012+08:00

-"we share the music, share the one dream, share the good times, share the the one world"

GOOD LUCK TO...
my tall sis chanwanxian who will be taking olvls chinese tmr, xuewei tenghui jason adeline who will be retaking their alvls chinese tmr, pjcians who will be taking their mye for h1 subjects in days to come.
and not forgetting little me who's having a math CA tmr (lol so insignificant xD)

so as you can see...i freaking have to go back sch tmr to take a CA =.= ha. nvm. it's SUBARU wif the girls aft that! yipeee. i heard the cassies (i.e. dbsk fans) screamed in the cinema when they appeared on screen!lmao! not surprised actually but i din noe sg cassies were so happening.hehe. i like :D

back to studies...it's not gonna be easy for all of us for the next few months.

i think i will fumble at times...but let's just hope everything goes by smoothly, just like olevels (fat hope? LOL)

lastly, i want to throw my com into the bin.okay. SELF CONTROL...i need to work hard. really need to.hard work pays off :D

and i just want to say...

JIAYOU EVERYBODY! GAMBATTE~ dong bang is with me :P

dont stop ~~frowning~~ smiling. ^^

HAHAHA

Stand By U

2009-05-29T23:50:00.005+08:00

edit: just so found out that the song was composed and written by xiahjunsu! what a genius. haha. no wonder it sounds so much like his own love story...sobs

love this song even more now xD

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finally!

drama version of Stand By U PV's official release! omigosh yeahh you didnt see wrong..it's Tanaka Kei acting as the lead for the pv. his crying was ridiculous, like how could a guy even cry like that?! it hit over 100000views just 2days aft its release how cool is that. somehow it seems like a continuation from the doushitte kimi wo suki ni nante shimattan darou pv although the actors are different. couldnt uds the jap text except for the last, which said "sayonara". but according to BRYANLIMthepro (xD), the smses before that were sort of like "can i meet you", "im lonely" kinda meaning. so the song ended with the guy deciding to let go by saying goodbye...ohmy. KOTOBA MO NAI WA DESU...SUPER TOUCHING. HA. the song without the lyrics is already beautiful, the lyrics just made it even more wonderful. sure oricon charts topping, just like doushitte! :D

TSC Live Tour goes to Fukuoka tmr wooohooooo! really hope the spread of influenza A simmers down by mid June when they have to go to Kansai region for concert. it's Osaka and some other place which ive forgotten...lol. SIAN

it's holidays yo. im down for college day from 2-6pm tmr sian ttmax. but going to watch dance, subaru! with MRS KIM after that haha (hey im kim too o.o lol) kept on seeing the commercial for it playing Koda Kumi's Faraway while taking bus home just now heh. HURRAY.

come on, let's all chiong for midyears :D

:DDD

2009-05-27T20:55:00.010+08:00

aj 25th anniversary concert. i still couldnt agree with the venue.
a good show put up by the performing arts group. jeryl's dance!! loved the choreography. tenghui did acapella woohooo. pradeep danced indian dance and he was so distinctive haha. others involved were andrea,ryan,nikki! cool cool ive got so talented friends :D

i so look like some monster lo look at my eyes. so scary...

man utd vs barcelona woohoooo! so exciting. i support man utd cos my dad does and i prefer red hehe.

i think this week has been a pretty slack week so far.

singapore freaking has its 1st positive case of h1n1!

north korea is crazy. kim jong ill is weird...

I WANT TO GO JAPAN. why must the stupid swine attack there.bu gan xin...grrr.

so wanna watch Heaven's Postman! jaejoongie looks damn pretty HAHA.

my cat triplets are mad over Lee Minho just recently. as much as i believe in my own prophecy, i believe in theirs too yeahhh man. WE BELIEVE. lol.

Xiah Junsu is my star. he finally could dance!did all dance numbers at Secret Code 4th Live Tour at Sapporo (dont know how to spell)! =)

Green Day's 21st Century Breakdown is a good album. but it takes on a so pessimistic view of our future..which reminds me 2012 is nearing! o.o i dont wanna die leh.

i want to unscrew my screwed up physics.

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28th japanese single:
♪ 待機しなさい Stand By You.. such a wonderful ballad. i want its official release! july 1st! :D
haha they've been flying. korea, japan, korea, japan..it's like me taking mrt to and fro ajc. woodlands, yck, woodlands, yck o.o LOL
i like how avex is getting them lotsa media coverage in japan hehe.
okay im going to do complex numbers now. it's so complex.

no title for this la

2009-05-23T18:50:00.014+08:00

too many things happened but they're so not worth mentioning at all.
i'll just type whatever that come across my mind now.

#1. went to yangzheng primary today! the kids, as usual, were lively and cute. a bit too jumpy, but that's okay..i enjoyed my time there so much. so sad that this week is gonna be the last week tutoring them. they kept on asking whether we would go back to tutor them...awww :( i really hope each and every one of them do well for their upcoming exams!

#2. japan is being hit very badly by the h1n1 virus (and dbsk oppas are still having their concert there!)...and the main thing is this, i actually had plans to go to japan during the june holidays but have to scrap the plans off. sian zzz. guess everything's fated such that i got to stay home to mug until i so become like a mug

#3. expected adam lambert and wanted him to win for idol! but kris allen won instead..so dramatic. like archuleta that time haha. nvm. both were good. but lambert is better hahaha. somehow i always feel that he looks like a cat with the eyeliner thingy on lol

#4. drafted out a timetable for revision during june hols. I MUST STICK TO IT. now im so motivated to study hahahaha. cant afford to do badly..i'll be letting to many ppl down. and ppl elsewhere are driving so hard, i cant lag behind. i must catch up, go beyond, whatever.
particularly worried for my gp and physics. i better pray hard and do more good deeds now cos i think gp is always luck when you just dont have: 1. the forte for writing and 2. mr.ang's brain.
as for physics...watch me mr.physics, I'LL EAT YOU UP (your love, your loveeee~) *sings to BoA's Eat You Up* well, i really hope i will conquer this horrible subject on earth called Physics =x

#5. xiahki is such a cutie samoyed doggie isnt it? just like its owner! hahaha.

aw man look at its eyes...cute cute cute!!! (with infinite exclamation marks)

#6. i find this photo very amusing!

hahahaha at the person who made this. ah just love both sides of junsu, he really can look very very different. hot while being serious performing dance numbers and sentimentals. and innately cute all day around when things get casual LOL

#7. actually it may be good if i stop blogging about these meaningless stuff. its just to amuse myself. like mr.andrianbell said, it will be better to blog out some perspectives of some important issues...other things just keep it aside. HA. nvm..i love amusing myself o.o

ohya. tmr going for aj concert :D
why cant they just make monday an off day...

k i got stuff to do now.
wooohoooooooo~ *self high*
=.=

punctuation of the week: ... (ellipsis)

2009-05-20T22:36:00.005+08:00

i...nearly died after studying for chem yesterday night cos it was so draining on me and i barely had 5hours of sleep after studying. and. i just died after the paper i tell you. sian bo...not say i didnt study leh. studied so much some more (i mean relatively as compared to the efforts put in for my tests before)..and i got killed lo. stupid aint i? watashi wa baka desu...and ms lee just dropped a bomb on the class when she told us midyrs will be even worse.

~~dots~~ ellipsis.

dingding. tmr looooooooooooong (tutu train) day.
dun care. so tired. im burning out. gonna slp now.
tmr will be better. i want. ashita hareru kana~

and. i dont like the month of May. it has never been good.

i better have a good dream later (that i managed to kill ___ )
oyasumi nasai
wahaha -.-

this time is beautiful...not

2009-05-16T13:57:00.012+08:00

hello. i am really not feeling well today. woke up having a fever and i went back to sleep till 1pm plus and im still having a fever of 38.5 degrees celcius. toothache is gone but fever has come. and im actually supposed to go yangzheng pri sch to tutor the kids today..sucks.

this week is just not my week...

im also very sick and tired of my hair already and i so wanna cut it but dont dare to cos i fear it will turn out disastrous. it's like hair long already also become sibei bo style..can't stand it. how about BoA's new cut?

so pretty. but confirm will fail on me..dots
totally cant concentrate on anything now, i guess i'll go slp afterwards...but next week there's chem common test with almost all topics on organic chem, ionic and chem equilibria..killer topics. how can i even waste my time today sleeping. arghs.

fever sucks.

but i guess im still a happy woman after all because i have in my posession....tada~ the 30minutes performance at the Ontama Carnival recently, and the 3rd Bigeast Fanclub Event. cant wait for the official release of Stand By You and Xiahtic too. coooool.
haha no la. i should be happy because at least there're ppl who actually care...

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ah i woke up feeling very bad and weak inside, so i went to look for sth to perk me up..digging into my video archives, i went back to watch some of the longlong ago vids.

some of their best live performances, my all time favourites:

performances that left me speechless...there're still Love In The Ice at the Osaka Soul Power and their recent Bolero at the Ontama Carnival and so many others. used to think that Love In The Ice at soul power was already their peak..but they went even better at their T Concert and now there's Bolero. gives me chills, seriously.
their recorded versions of these songs totally pale in comparison to their live performances, that's why i'd always like listening to their jap sentimentals live, and watching their korean dance numbers live. their live performances just rock big time. after a blast at Saitama, it's 4th live tour at Sendai tmr! so exciting haha. and i think junsu's legs are much better now already yipee, just din feel good seeing him on a wheelchair at the Kobe concert, although still a perfect voice~

from TOHOSHINKI STAFF REPORT; SENDAI:

■Arrival at Sendai, City of Forest
2009/05/16(Sat) 14:39

It's the first day in Sendai!
It's a bit cloudy at the concert location but everyone, please blow it away with your enthusiasm!♪

■リハーサル中！(In the middle of rehearsal!)
2009/05/16(Sat) 15:34

We had a great rehearsal just now!
The members paid great attention to details and confirmed everything.

=) it's definitely gonna be a great concert as usual. goodluck to them!

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love in the ice;

"誰もが誰かに愛される為に
この世に命を煌(きらめ)かせるのさ
それがもしも僕ならもう一度君の心を
永遠(とわ)の優しさで暖めるよ…

For anyone to be loved by someone,
Makes life in this world shine
If it was me, I’d make your heart warm once more
With eternal tenderness"

どんな未来描いてるの? what kind of future are you painting?
i cant just drop everything down now..life without downs is not life.
don't give up. gambatte :D

2009-05-14T23:45:00.007+08:00

miserable day.
harboured an aching tooth to school. and today has to be the longest day of all.
phy spa skill A. gp lecture test. pe. phy va lessons..all the way till 6pm.
felt like forever for school to end.
pain like kuku. super duper pain. very.
pain until like underneath my tooth there's some war going on..like the nerves are all upset and screwed up. you know how it feels, do you know do you know do you know.

then i had to bear with it. talk also pain, laugh also pain, open my mouth also pain.
couldnt even slp properly last night. couldnt even concentrate on my phy spa and gp paper2 lecture test.
survived practically on fluid food today.

.....i wish i could just faint from the pain of my toothache so that i become unconscious thereafter and could not feel the pain anymore. in fact, i really felt i was going to faint cos it was so freaking painful.

i dont know what's wrong i dont want go see dentist cos dentists are scary.
i dont wanna pluck out my tooth.

ahhhh. cant afford to miss lessons, i'll survive another day of aching tooth with panadol extra relief, i hope.
it will be such a joke to just die from the pain of my toothache. bang

why is shit happening to me..

itai. =(

昴スバル

2009-05-11T18:04:00.009+08:00

~halo to the singapore cinema management. this movie was out in japan in MARCH and you still havent freaking release this here yet!! zzz. must wait till end of may some more wtkuku. everything is just...SLOW.

dots la ive been anticipating this since like december last year already. why movies always come out so slowly here in sg..could have watched it online long ago but i choose not to bcos this movie's gonna be so good im definitely gonna watch this in a theatre!

the lead actress is the one who acted in the horror show One Missed Call if im not wrong. lol what a contrast..she looks so much prettier in this movie. damn nice la mummyyyy!

haha and DBSK's Bolero fits as the movie theme song so nicely..the fleeting melody and grace of the movie~ makes me like the song even more. saw one of their live performances for Bolero recently and it's just as breathtaking as theirs for Love In The Ice. absolutely loved!
ohoh my 1st song on the playlist: Arashi's Sakura Sake! hehe was on shuffle mode on my player, then this song played. felt like jumping with the music and singing along with them so super highhhh hahaha, so decided to add it on my playlist. it's a damn old song la..this was the song that got me to know about them in lower sec i think. and i actually liked them for a period cos the song is very nice. aft tat their songs din appeal much to me until very recently. HAHA.
check out 2NE1 too, they're like the girls version of BIG BANG. lol. their songs are quite catchy, love their new single FIRE. hoho.

ok la i got lotsa things to do. so glad that today's a holiday cos im gonna be so screwed for pushing almost everything to today...

for dancers, technique is a tool. dont be a slave to techniques.
oh bang. sch tmrrrrrr =( and I WANNA WATCH DANCE, SUBARU!

p.s. junsu's ankle faster recover!! so sad for him to sprain it just a day before their 4th live tour. gogogo junsu, wanna see him dance on stage agn.

haha sit on wheelchair also can look so cool right lol

oh my mama. i wan see them perform..LIVE! zzz come to sg please =/
sg fans like u and me shld gather and pester SMentertainment for them to bring their artistes like BoA and DBSK to town..seriously. hai so much for all the Free Trade Agreements we have with other countries..how come there isnt any FTA for entertainment purposes.
aiya small market means small market la. cannot fight with others no matter what..now even mr.JayChou also dont wanna come here for concert already o.o
kkk STOP BEING IRRITATING AND STOP BEING SO ECONS.

The Fighting Spirit of The Dong Bang. DBSK banzai! :D

learn to be grateful

2009-05-10T23:05:00.008+08:00

HAPPI HAPPI MUMMY'S DAY! =)
i super super love my mom to the very inner core of the earth! muacks muacks hugs mugs hahaha :D

a nice and sweet choc chip cake made. yumyum. then a nice treat from us.
that alaskan crab was seriously very huge omg lol.

ohya today, i bought 4D for the first time in my whole life! o.o
LOL like wth. the person looked at me as if i wasnt supposed to be there.
eh i got the computer to pick a number for me, and the number was quite nice lo let's see if i'll win on wednesday hahahaa.

just now, i got a teeny weeny bit carried away by replying comments on facebk as if it's instant messaging. hahaha ginelle and kenneth la. damn funny =.= lol.

yay tmr's a holidayyyyy. yipee. i like :D
but...dots. i need to learn to plan my time more properly.

haha why is everything so random today. hmmm. okay so i shall continue to be random lo.

i miss dance. cant wait for alevels to finish so i can go back to sth i enjoy.

i also miss the old 2408, when everyone was so laid back in their own lives..and we'd just spend our j1 times in school crapping and slacking all the way. thats the life in jc man =x

even more so, i miss those meaningless and retarded outings with the peeps, when we would spend most of our time out stoning, and watching stupid movies not even worth watching at all..because we could afford to! haha.

i miss travelling with my family too. even if it means travelling to the nearest country like...malaysia. lol. those times spent with them are more than just precious to me.

HAHAHA sibei retarded brother!!!!! wtkuku was he doing man
i love my family lalalala. ha!

hehe i just love photos, dont you?..they allow me to reminisce and picture back those wonderful times that formed part of my life, reviving those memories of the past that briefly got faded in my mind in the midst of living a life as hectic yet as mundane as ever (and this i meant the jc life LOL). i love this kinda feeling because it reminds me that ive not lived my past 17years of life just sitting back and seeing the world went by..and it further motivates me to work harder towards achieving more in life because i know ive got so much to look forward to after all my hard work.

but the thing also is when i reminisce, i become so envious of myself...myself in the past. because my old self possessed so many things that i couldnt have now.
aiya. i just miss everything i had and could do in the past that i cant have and do now. not now..not for the next few months until the big As are over. come on, a few more months only!

kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.
after alevels k. everything after alevels.

yesyes. back to work. GO. ohya..did i mention i ate alot just now. if i havent, yes i did. I ATE ALOT. omg..maa nante koto nanda!! i better go do some situps later man. okokokok stop being so long winded and freaking GET BACK TO WORK!

cant stop being grateful for whatever i have, although i occasionally will pms and rant like crap...but still, something always perks me up no matter what. arigatai! =)

have a good laugh

2009-05-08T22:10:00.006+08:00

this person added me on facebook and then on msn. he started talking to me and asked whether he could go out with me o.o crazy is it. go bang wall 1st? i was nice to at least reply him can...and i rejected nicely lo. and the conversation went..

(9:47 PM) SAMSON: ya
(9:47 PM) SAMSON: so we wont get to go out right?
(9:48 PM) i'M wanER(:: i doubt so...its so weird
(9:48 PM) i'M wanER(:: why do u wanna go out with me
(9:48 PM) SAMSON: what is so weird
(9:48 PM) SAMSON: its not
(9:48 PM) SAMSON: it wont be if we get to know each other and talk on the fone and all first right
(9:48 PM) SAMSON: and if u stop thinking its weird.. it wont be weird
(9:49 PM) SAMSON: right?
(9:51 PM) i'M wanER(:: im just quite uncomfortable with it la
(9:51 PM) i'M wanER(:: sorry
(9:53 PM) SAMSON: ok
(9:53 PM) SAMSON: go ahead
(9:53 PM) SAMSON: block me then
(9:53 PM) SAMSON: and dwelete me
(9:54 PM) i'M wanER(:: o.o ok
(9:54 PM) SAMSON: ya
(9:54 PM) SAMSON: no point chatting also what

HAHAHA. whatever lo. he's angry at me just because i refuse to go out with a stranger i dont even know? wth la. seriously JUST GO BANG THE WALL! omg. this is the 1st time ppl ask me to block them just because they tio rejected. usually i'll just block them after 1chat cos they're so irritating, no need to wait for them to tell me what to do please -.-

sometimes i really wonder what these ppl live for. despise them to the very extreme lo zzz.
what do you think was the purpose of me putting my status as "married" on facebook then? its to shun off these ppl la ive had enough..some are damn sick like they ought to get all diseases in the world. but above was just plain hilarious. hoho.

mas selamat got caught and they made such a big fuss out of it. front page was plastered with his face (they always use that same photo i dont know why). if you wanna make his photo on front page, at least make it sth refreshing pls? like maybe a picture of mas selamat smiling at the cam, or those funny edited photos of him circulated in emails. HAHA.
come on, he's just someone who's even shorter than sg men's average height...
no. wait. he's a freaking......TERRORIST! o.o

which reminds me of the FITNA video mr ivan ang showed us..gross. extremism is bad.
and im really very impressed by ivanang he's sososososososososo knowledgeable! ive never even seen such a knowledgeable person in my entire life. he knows practically everything that can be known, ranging from histories of all wars,religions,countries to physics mechanics to biology to different kinds of languages (he even knows the verses in the Quran in arabic language goshhh), to the various different famous brands of the world and even how the models pose (what upper gaze, lower gaze stuff). he can just simply cough out everything fluently and effortlessly in impromptu manners most casually. i really really admire him,salute him,look up to him.
you ask, he answers.
you flaw, he corrects.
you argue, he shoot back at you and you suffer a humiliating and terrible defeat.
while they whole class would just sit gaping at him at the golden words that will come out of his mouth, in awe of him. IMBA TO THE VERY VERY MAX.
shld go open an ivanpedia~ a new brand of encyclopedia LOL i'll definitely buy!

and kudos to AJ AESTHETICS!
international dance, choir, chinese orchestra, symphonic band~ GOLD WITH HONOURS.
4GWHS for this year's syf! steady man.
i hope the sports teams do well for their competitions, like bball which got into finals last year. it could have been very exciting for me to go down to support them last yr, but unfortunately we couldnt go down cos it was 1day bfore mye. sad.

okay i dont like this week. too many tests. too stressed up.
but cool its gonna be a long weekend.
and quantum physics is so fascinating but seriously very very complex..

im taking a break today, like finally :D
i wanna watch DBSK on star king, kami no shizuku, voice and dance subaru! =)

beyond a thousand nights

2009-05-03T22:18:00.005+08:00

sen no yoru wo koete- didnt know that this song has such meaning to it until i really saw the lyrics. i just thought the song was nice and was very amazed by the lead singer futoshi's very long breath which can just pull off strings and strings of lyrics effortlessly! but its more than just the melody actually..the song itself carries such deep meaning. now im wondering why this song didnt do as well as their other songs in the oricon charts. its sucha beautiful song =)

...tick tock. 10plus pm already.
ive spent the past 1hour printing articles for gp. and it must always be in this kinda situation that my desktop printer gives me problem. zzz so much time wasted lo. i can at least spend the time (if not studying) watching some drama online right.
WASTE MY TIME. time is precious you know. zzz.

lotsa things coming up next week.
gp file check (must pass). math test. chem spa skill A. phy value-add prog starts again. econs test.
sian to the very max. just dont why i cant write for econs. lack the spark recently.
math...dont have to say. its always fluctuating. phy..the worst.
and all my H2s some more. wahlao. stressssss.
needa buck up. seriously.
need holidays too. but wait long long la

o.o just kill me can